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Okay girlfriend(s), I'm gonna give you the full deee-luxe!

So I was talking to my friend Cullin on the phone, (I called him on the phone, we're more like aquantinces. We don't talk/hang out much at all) So it was awkward calling him. (I was cleaning my room, and I was bored) So I called him and first it started off awkward like "ummm... hi?" he said. Then we started talking about random things like Pokemon and Pianos, Avatar The Last Airbender, Superheroes, Pixar (the company) Toy Story, and then one point in the conversation he was like "Okay now I'm gonna ask you a question. Prepare for the weirdest." So I'm like okay ^^ Sometimes during the whole conversation I asked him to repeat himself (or I just ignored it) because you know how the phone sometimes makes his voice all fuzzy or something? Anyway he was hard to understand. But I'm dead serious:

So then he said something, and I'm like huh? he said "do you like me" in a very bashful tone (which is funny, because two years ago in the school's play he was Bashful. thats his name) so then I said "uhhh yeeeaaah I like you.. as a friend...." and it ended up being this weird conversation, of him confirming if I liked him or not. I ended up trailing off the conversation and I was like "I like hanging out with boys cause they are like SPORTS and not girls as much cause they are like SHOES." Then he was like "I don't mean to change the subject but you didnt really ask my question" so then I was like "yeah I liike you" then he's like "why?" that was a really hard question because I didn't know him, like a deep friendship. We were just, like, pass-the-hall friends, you know? So then I told him what I liked about him, I said he had a personality I liked, that he had that carefree personality. And that he is cool. And then I was like "...can I be frank with you? Like, flat out with it?" he's like "sure, go ahead." so then I was being all shy and junk and I was like "I also like.. um..." then he was like "go on say it" so then I was like "I like your... face." and I was lik XDDDDD (remember this is on the phone) Then he was like

"Oh. I don't really find me that attractive." I was like eek "Are you KIDDING me!?" He's like "nope." Because he was like, gorgeous. He had blond hair, blue eyes, clear skin... The boy was like my dream man. And he also said "'Cause... before, for a while I liked you for a little bit..." and I'm like "You mean like as in like or as in like like?" he's like "like like." and I was kinda silenced for awhile, then I said "Oh... I'm flattered." He was being so cute about everything. He made embarrassed sounds and stuff. What was also cute/funny/weird was that he was huffing and puffing between sentenses, like he was nervous and wanted to calm down. I think I like him even more now, because I actually had a crush on him before, (I still do!) but... I'm wondering if he still likes me. Does that count?

I'm kinda trailing off... I think..... Basically,

I
like like
him.

I actually lied to him. I said I liked him as a friend, but it's just I was so embarrassed I didn't want to tell him the truth. then later he had to go, and ever since we hung up the phone, I was smiling for a couple hours. I am SO happy that he thinks of me that way. No guy EVER told me thier feelings about me! NO ONE! That took real guts. Luckily, I'm an easy person to talk to. I almost feel like I'm in love~