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Title: First Meeting [Pt. II]

He opened his eyes and was somewhere completely different. His first instinct was to panic, but I wasn't going to let him. "Raavan, relax, it's just your mind. The corner of it that I possess anyway."
I watched as he looked around at his surroundings. A dimly lit room, lit by some candles and one or two lava lamps bubbling. A darkwood room, darkwood bed, black sheets. A desk, a chair, a sofa, the usual room decor.
"Where am I?" he asked.
"Like I said, your mind."
"Why am I here?"
"Becuase I'm going to show you that there's nothing out there to be afraid of."

Title: First Meeting

We were only children back then.
"Raavan?" I called in the darkness.
He was meditating, clearing his mind.
I was about to pull him into it.
He was about twelve years old, living in a dank dark little shack in the middle of nowhere. His parents had died before getting him back to the cave, and he didn't know where it was by himself. So he wandered through the woods and came about this little shack. He was hoping that the outer guards would be looking for him and catch his scent to get him back. Until then he was meditating to clear his mind so he wasn't afraid.
His eyes opened and he looked around for the voice he had head. I couldn't help but laugh. "Raavan, don't panic. It's okay, darling, I won't hurt you."
"Where are you? Why can't I see you?" he asked. He seemed so scared.
"Raavan, my name is Jessa. You can't see me because I'm inside your head. I can show you if you like."
"But...I..."
"Raavan, shhh, calm down honey. I promise I won't hurt you. Just let me prove to you that I'm real."
He was silent for a while. I could see the thoughts flying around in his mind. He still wasn't convinced that I wasn't going to hurt him. "What do you look like?" he asked.
I smiled and described myself for him in detail. "I'm 12 years old, just like you are, my hair and eyes are red. My dress is quite old-fashioned, but I believe that it suits me just fine. Raavan, may I show you around now?"
Another blur of thoughts rushed through his mind. "Okay..." he said finally.
"Alright then, Raavan, close your eyes and relax, just like when you were meditating..."

[this will be continued later on...]

Title: The Beginning

I rolled over to find he wasn't there.
I opened my eyes and sat up, looking around for him.
"Raavan, darling?"
I heard him in the next room over, putting on clothes. I got up, ignoring my own lack of clothing, and went into the room to see him. "Raavan, darling, what's wrong?"
"Jessa, we can't keep doing this. I mean, it's...not normal. I'm escaping inside myself for things that I should be able to get out there!" he gestured madly at the walls.
"Raavan-"
"Jessa, you're poisoning me. I figured that out last night. I'm addicted to you like I was addicted to-" he stopped, hating himself for his past.
The past I helped him to be rid of.
"Raavan, that's not-"
"It's exactly what's happening. I don't need you anymore. I'm going out there now, and I'm going to stay there, no matter how much it hurts. There's not much you can do about it, Jessa, you're not..." he sighed, not wanting to finish the sentence he knew would stab me through the heart.
"I'm not real. But I am, Raavan, real enough to you."
"Jessa, I can't stay here, and you have to. You have to accept that. I have to go now, Jessa."
I let him walk out, let him walk to the door of my room before I said it. He had crossed the line, my love had, and I had to teach him a lesson now. "You can't be rid of me that easily, Raavan Angelus."
He stopped for a moment, I think he almost started turning around, but he walked out the door, closing it behind him, to begin his new life on the outside.
I heard the door lock, and my anger rose to the surface again.
He was trying to lock me away.
That was never going to work.
I wasn't going away without a fight.

uh...the obligatory first post.
Will be back with something more meaningful...when I feel like writing it.