I haven't updated this journal in practically forever. Hmm, I guess I haven't had much to share with anyone. Anyway from now on I'm going to use this journal to post ramblings and thoughts. You really don't have to read them you know. ;D
So, anyway, my current situation is pretty much all I think about.. Well lately anyway. I'm 19, I still have no direction in life. I mean when it comes to careers I have absolutely no clue what I'm going to do. I should know by now, I mean most people my age have some idea.
I don't even think I've accomplished anything during my 19 years of living, at least nothing of substantial meaning. To make things even worse my parents moved my family to a small town a couple of years ago. You might wonder what's so bad about living in a small town. Well, I lost all my previous friends and is nigh impossible to make any new ones in such a small, desolate place especially when I have such bad social skills. I can't even find a part-time job. All I do is sit at home all day pondering life and what my meaning is. I try to stop thinking about it but I just can't. I have no one to talk to about it either, my parents aren't happy with me and have become distant.
What if, at age 30, everything's still the same. I just don't know what I'd do. All I'm doing is drifting through the days, feeling useless and destined to be alone. I wake up every morning and it's a chore to drag myself out of bed. I do the exact same things day after day after day. I just exist, I have no meaning..
I told you I was going to ramble. ^^; I just needed to voice all this, get it off my chest.
Okkkkkay, on a happier note, I just finished editing my extended profile, so post ze comments! =D I want to know what you think!
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