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I don't know where Im going or what I'm doing.
 Demented Dreamer · Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 03:58am · 0 Comments |
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my screwed up, messed up life |
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I have seen my dad since I was 9 years old, that was 9 years ago...that's half of my life I've lived without seeing my dad. I haven't talked to him in 4 years. He's always late sending presents and even then it's only money because he doesn't know me. or my sister for that matter.
The other day a guy on myspace added me. I figured he was friends with my cousin because he lives in the same town as that whole family and he was the same age. etc. well I did something I don't normally do - I added him thenI sent him a message and asked him "do I know you?" Well, that was a couple days ago and I'd forgotten completely that I'd added him and messaged him, so today when I got on and had a message I just figured it was from my best friend, but when I opened it I found it was from that guy. In response to my question he said "no you dont know me but your dad told me to find you on myspace. i live with him so hes says hi"
some 17 year old guy that I've never met or heard of is living with my dad! I don't understand why, so of course I sent him a message back, how could I not? I don't know my dad and it's certainly been quite a while. This is almost as bad as when i found out 3 years ago that I have a brother. Now, this brother, i don't know his name, i do know where he lives and how old he is. But his mother has said he is not to know who his dad is until he is at least 18. The boy lives in the same freaking town as my dad! He was in my aunts freaking boy scout troop and had no idea he was related. My first thought of course was that oh, this could be my brother, but he's too old to be my brother.
The guy has already signed off so i don't know when I'm going to get his response
Demented Dreamer · Wed Dec 27, 2006 @ 06:53pm · 1 Comments |
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Kiss me to fiercely
Hold me too tight
I need help believing
You're with me tonight
My wildest dreamings
Could not forsee
Lying beside you
With you wanting me
Just for this moment
As long as you're mine
I've lost all resistance
And crossed a boderline
And if it turns out
It's over too fast
I'll make ev'ry last moment last
As long as you're mine...
Maybe I'm brainless
Maybe I'm wise
But you've got me seeing
Through different eyes
Somehow I've fallen
Under your spell
And somehow I'm feeling
It's "up" that I fell
Every moment
As long as you're mine
I'll wake up my body
And make up for lsat time...
Say there's no future
For us as a pair...
And though I may know
I don't care
Just for this moment
As long as you're mine
Come be how you want to
And see how bright we shine
Borrow the moonlight
Until it is through
And know I'll be here holding you
As long as you're mine
What is it?
It's just...for the first time, I feel...wicked
Demented Dreamer · Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 07:21pm · 1 Comments |
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<a href="http://www.facebook.com/p/Debbie_Hughes/501739051" title="Debbie Hughes' Facebook profile" target=_TOP><img src="http://badge.facebook.com/badge/501739051.11.353102209.png" border=0 alt="Debbie Hughes' Facebook profile"></a>
Demented Dreamer · Mon Oct 23, 2006 @ 07:02pm · 0 Comments |
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He Loves Me...He Loves Me NOT |
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and all this time I thought that we were through...funny thing that was.
he loves me
he loves me not
he love me
he loves me not
he loves me...
...he loves me not...
and so the last petal falls...is it too late to change my mind?
Demented Dreamer · Tue Oct 10, 2006 @ 03:41am · 0 Comments |
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yeah, so I don't really have much to say...but i feel like writing something...so I'm going to! what an idea
so school started a week and a half ago and it's fun...i mean..as fun as school can get...but my first two periods are the best, I have Childcare and I'm just so excited, I wish I could fastforward to the first week in October when the kids come. I have my Tator tot in that class so it's even better than it would be by itself.
what else to say? um...I am back to working again, which is good and sucks at the same time, I get 2 weeks worth of paycheck this week so it'll be like $250 ^_^ I'm soo happy about that...but I owe my parents like 80 so it's gonna go fast...
today's labor day so NO SCHOOL woOt I watched 2 movies and I sorta started practicing for SAT *collective gasp from audience*
yes, I know it's quite a shock, hah, but I did! I'm gonna fail it i know...
so anyways...that's about it for me...today's Katie Leigh's b'day, so happy b'day to her...and...um...
ok...i'm done, I swear, here, have some pictures...
  
but the funny thing is...I'VE NEVER BEEN KISSED!
woebegone!
senior pic!
having artsy fun <3
Demented Dreamer · Tue Sep 05, 2006 @ 01:09am · 0 Comments |
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Michelle Moments:
"Aaah! I can't see! ...oh...wait...that's cause my eyes are closed..."
"Do you have any pinkout?"
"I don't lip speak"
"I think...the refridgerator was made for midgets"
"'You are beautiful, no matter what they say...' I hope the table sings that to himself..."
"Look at all these trees, they're all different color greens! THEY'RE INDIVIDAULS!"
Michelle: I have a question
Exasperated Debbie : WHAT!?
Michelle: What bathrooms do transvestites use...or is there a transvestite bathroom?
"Balls is not a dirty word. Soft balls...wait...WOAH!"
"You little F-U-C-K-I-ing
Michelle: I'll give you LSD!
Debbie: Really, you have some?
Michelle: Yeah, in my bookbag, let's go trip! Get it? They call it tripping!?
Rachel : Can you hold my ball?
Michelle: Sure I'll hold your ball...
Michelle: I don't walk down that street
Debbie: Ah, come on now! it's a fun street
hehehehehehehehehehehe
Demented Dreamer · Sat Aug 12, 2006 @ 11:12pm · 0 Comments |
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If I change my hair it's not your fault.
If I change my name you're not to blame
If I change my life, you have no claim
I am changing for myself,
Not changing for someone like you
Make up your mind
I'm not turning back
No looking over my shoulder
No heading down the wrong track
So take a long long look
Remember what you see
This is the me you used to know
The me you want me to be
Demented Dreamer · Wed Aug 09, 2006 @ 02:18am · 0 Comments |
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well...the lights are off now..i'm ready to move one...i need a new adventure..
i love him
but it's over
someone help me find someone else?
Demented Dreamer · Wed Aug 02, 2006 @ 03:18am · 0 Comments |
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