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what? I don't even know!
I've logged in like ... oh ... every six months or every year or so, peeked around, clicked a few buttons, changed my avatar, and wandered off again. You see, I never really "quit" Gaia. I knew that I'd be back from time to time. That it's not a site that I would ever properly and truly quit. I remember so many people doing a big song and dance, giving away all their stuff, making it "for reals." I've seen people get themselves banned to try and leave this site, and it still didn't work. Inevitably, a few weeks or months later, there they are again.
So yeah. I've been *largely* out of touch. Also, while I've seen profile comments, a bunch of PM notifications would sometimes appear during my times away, only to show nothing in my inbox. That happened several times! Sorry if I never responded, I never got those messages. sad
Anylo.
About a week ago, on a whim, I dropped in. Wanted to mess with my avatar, show a friend the outfit I built for one of my ancient OCs that we were thinking of using for a tabletop game.
And then I poked around the Marketplace. I changed my currency from Gold to Plat. I tried on a few items that have released over the past ... what ... more than ten years since I've been "active"?
And now I've just ... kinda? But not really? But sorta? Back, I mean? Been here for a WEEK? Somehow, just checking in daily. Trying to organize my inventory. Trying to figure out what's what. Selling things. All of that stuff I've hoarded for so long has just been sitting here, gathering dust, and at this point with the heaps of re-releases and re-colors and whatnot, I guess I have finally come to accept that the Gaian economy being absolutely whack is ... just ... how it's gonna be from now on.
So yeah. Whatever. No real plans here, no real goals, no real purpose other than another way to spend random bits of empty time.
There's a lot about Gaia that I've missed. There's a lot about Gaia that changed my life. Heck, in 2008, I literally moved in and lived with people I met on Gaia, and they're still some of my dearest and best friends in the world. I'm chatting with one of them on discord while working on this journal entry.
But also? I don't really know what I want to do anymore. A lot of my old friends have moved on. The ones that stayed all this time have had a vastly different experience with this site over the years. And we're all at such different places, really, so I don't know if I just want to reconnect or start over or just largely disregard the social aspect of this ... intrinsically social website ... and focus on making my avatar pretty.
Which, I suppose, was always the primary draw?
But yeah.
Stupidest thing in the world but I just noticed that some items that had always been "impossible" ... actually seem reachable? Now, the impossible things are, apparently, the ones that kinda got overlooked in their heydays and didn't see a re-release. Ah, typical Gaia. Maybe I'll look at all of the sponsor crap I've got kicking around. (Still can't believe that Macy's paid Gaia advertising money. hahaha.)
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