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In a strange way, I do not feel bad for how long I've been away from here. The time I'm spending not blogging has opened up many opportunities to my eyes.

Well actually, I'm still confused on what I should be doing. I'm not used to being outside of High School and knowing that I should go to college, get my license, and get a job. There's a part of me that's excited and another that just cannot shake the fact I'm actually attaining such a responsibility. I don't miss my childhood, as it wasn't one of my best or worst, because I've realized I can't go back and enjoy what I've missed. That means what I could have had and what I refused to do.

I'm very happy to be with my new love Joe, and really hope I will stay with him for the rest of my life. There's still these doubts in my head that I could lose him, but maybe I'm feeling that because I still sometimes think I'll be shallow again. Maybe I'm still quite insecure, but I wish I could stop thinking like that and actually really focus on Joe. He's the most important thing in my life right now. <3

I hope to blog/journal more sooner or later. Until then. razz