Wow it's been like a year since all that s**t happend. Hahaha. I still remember this time last year a little bit. I was like the 'goth' kid. Boy i sure got over that hot topic thing fast though. u_U. I've recently noticed i've been coming out of my shell a bit more, last year i didn't really talk to anyone until around march during the WASL etc when i made friends with nick and hap. And became better friends with anela and melissa. Even since then i've noticed more and more people hanging aroundme. I guess i kinda findit annoying though because half the time i'd rather be left alone. It's fun when conor and tyler comearound though but now it gets dark so early that happens less and plus i threw my arm out when he taught me to through a football. Also this time last year chris and i weren't talking and that's happening again only for different reasons. I'm happier without him, I wont call him names or anything like that, he doesn't deserve that much.
I am hoping to move to australia, i mentioned to my mother to start looking for jobs there. I've seen pictures and it looks so pretty there and plus maybe i'd be able to see jack even though i don't really want to =/ I'd actually more like to move to butternut wisconson or something because then i could be with alex and she's really really amazing and then i'd also be closer to amber wich would be niser and i'd be like only and hour away from sarah : ) But then again moving would mean not being able to see my dad and even though i don't do that often i need him around cause if mom pissesme off one more time i swear i will probably end up killing myself.
I dont understand her obsession with grades etc. and i don't understand why all the kids with parents who don't care want them to care. :[ i've spent my life wishing tobe like one of them and also that i was never adopted cause my real mom might've been young but atleast she's really nise and stuff. And i'd rather live down south. Though i guess i would miss my friends a little.
Anyways. It's good to be happier now, i'll probably start sinking back into depression or whatnot soon but whatever. :[
Kain Kuga · Sun Nov 13, 2005 @ 01:13am · 1 Comments |