Hey sup guys. I just wanted to do a little journal updating how my life is going right now. Right now one of the big things in my life right now is that I'm an FtM pre like everything right now sadly. And I hope to be starting soon. I also still work at Taco Bell. Though I'm a shift manager now which is a step up on that ladder. But I've stopped drawing as much now so its rare for me to decide to draw. But I still want to be an animator some day. Or own my own anime store. That'd be cool too.
My life at home is pretty okay. I'm moved out with my gf and friend. Things have been a bit rough with me and my gf though lately. Ive been really confused here recently about things. And I'll say it now. I'm kinda being a d**k I guess. I've been confused on my sexuality here for a while. I love her but I swoon over men and s**t. I've always known I like men but I've always dated girls cause I like them too. But here lately the guy thing has been bugging me and messing up me and my gf's relationship. People at work think I should date a guy. And I mean I won't lie I've thought about it. But I always go back to how I feel about her and how I don't want her out of my life. But like today I felt weird around her. It's like I have days where the whole day is off and I don't know what to do.
But that's a topic that no one cares to know about let's move on shall we. Let's see, I've been in the process of trying to rp again. Or at least be social. At least. Heh. I talk to like a total of three people right now. Not counting work. I need more friends I feel lonely and out of place. I use to be a person that was surrounded by friends and then suddenly I stopped speaking so much and now I don't have very many at all. And I'm not and open and happy as I use to be. I know hard to tell from my posts on here right? But I use to be happier. I don't quite know when I stopped. But I have been meaning to change it back. So I will be on more often and probably on da more often trying to show my art that I need to draw.
But anyways yeah I just wanted to post this up here since I couldn't sleep and it's like 4:10 in the morning. And I have to be up by like 6:40 to take my gf to work. Then I go to work at 10 :3 so fun! Well anyways that's all on this one night guys!
 MorganMcCarthyMomo · Fri Jul 11, 2014 @ 09:18am · 0 Comments |
