(Not Complete)
My tea's gone cold. I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all.
The morning rain clouds up my window,
But I can't see at all.
Even if I could, it'd all be grey,
But you're picture on my wall.
It reminds me that it's not so bad, not so bad.
Dear D,
My soul is lost. It was lost from before I was even born.
It's not my fault, my destiny was scorn.
Everyone around me has negative energy towards me and my family.
Guess it's 'cause my mother suffered while carrying me
So, instead of being born into light I was born into darkness.
And that is where my soul dwells. I've lost my soul mate and I'll never know who he was.
Dark spirits follow me where ever I go; I used to see them before
But now I guess they've blended in with my life because I don't even notice them anymore.
I've asked God to help me, I'm waiting for Him...But maybe I should start with you, just a
Thought, give me a chance, hear me out, I have a plan...
My tea's gone cold. I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all.
The morning rain clouds up my window,
But I can't see at all.
Even if I could, it'd all be grey,
But you're picture on my wall.
It reminds me that it's not so bad, not so bad.
Dear D,
I've been waiting here patiently while you go out and do you,
Telling me at this point you're only looking out for you,
Doing what makes you feel good, makes you happy, not giving a ********
That all I want is a family, a chance to do things differently,
So the children I spawn can be happy, instead of being ******** UP!
And not go through the s**t that I had to go thru as a child, growing up,
Thinking I should never had been born, no one ever wanted me, not even YOU!
Although you say you love me, is it even true?
When you need love and attention, I'm the first one you seek...or am I? Well not in
December when you sought out that member from that community center
Like you usually do. And you say you did it for you, but it was dumb, too late don't you
Think? I the one that gets made a fool of. Blind loyalty but for what? I get crushed!
Then you calmly remind me that I ******** up, that was what? Almost a year ago? Never want to
Admit that you are wrong; only bring up the things that get you high-strung,
That I do, to you. Give me a break, like you always say, Humans aren't perfect, it's in our
Nature to do something stupid...PS. Never did anything intentional, but just like you
I have a wall up too.
My tea's gone cold. I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all.
The morning rain clouds up my window,
But I can't see at all.
Even if I could, it'd all be grey,
But you're picture on my wall.
It reminds me that it's not so bad, not so bad.
Dear Mr.-I'm-perfect-and-too-good-for-you
This will be the last time I ever write anything for you
It's been 11 months since I left you, well technically,
But that's all on me. I wasn't strong enough to fully detach myself
From thee. I feel myself slowly giving into that darkness that's been over me,
From before birth, I guess it really is part of my Destiny, to be screwed up, why am
I even writing this, its not like you give a ********.
So this is my life I'm sending you, can you see it?
I wish I had a car so I could do 190 on the Belt Parkway.
I could drink a bottle of Vodka, wouldn't have to dare me to drive...
You rescued me once, but I still feel myself drowning, it's too late, I'm barely alive
All I wanted was to make you happy.
But you don't, and never will, have enough. Don't you see?
You keep telling me to wait; I'm running out of time.
I still love you, so much that I have to rhyme!
You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about me
And when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you SCREAM about it
I hope your conscience EATS AT YOU and you can't BREATHE without me
I have a lot of anger towards you, this is true, and I've bottled it up for too
Long now, I'm through. I wish it was all a dream, instead it's a horrible nightmare that's
Become reality, I can't wake up from it; I can only hope one day if it all doesn't go away
I'll be strong enough to take it into my own hands, and just fade to black...
(not complete)
disnara Community Member 
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