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I wish i had never hurt you
Id wish for one more try
but i know the pain i have inflicted
on you almost made u die
I wish u could forgive me
so we could start a new
I wish you were here with me
so i could just hold u

I wish that i could love you
without the fear of my past
but soon my fears of that dreadful time
will end at long last
by then i will be ready
by then i will be strong
to make us two in one
and bind us like notes in a song

I wish I hadnt of blown it
i wish i had used my heart
but my fear for hurt
is what finally tore us apart
To me this isnt wise
to u it isnt fair
and deep down i know
there is so much that we could share
Please dont hold against me
the harmful things i said
please just understand
its being hurt again i dread
but i have felt that u are different
but scared i was to the bone
and yet i should have trusted u
and this should have been well known

I wish i could be stronger
I wish her memory would wane
cause all this hurt and sadness
has left me quite disdain,
I wish i had never hurt you
Id wish for one more try
I wish that u were with me
and i wish i wouldnt cry

Feeling like im being ripped apart
slowly forming an Ice Heart
my soul is clamped within a vice
clutching on to my Heart of Ice
I dont know even where to start
healing up my Ice Heart
Wishing for something nice
yet getting nothing but a heart of ice
waiting for her to come back
ice heart slowly fades to black.
wishing i knew what i should have said
but my black heart now leaves me cold and dead.

There once were two lovers
Fire and Water were their names
but little did they know they'd be prey
for fates little games
for though their love
seemed as strong as steel
Fate would challenge
if that love were real

So one day Fate came to Water
and sent him away
to become a warrior
and save the world one day
Oh and Fire waited for her beloved Water
but he never came
so she layed with Earth
and burnt out her flame
Water finally came back
after fighting in a war
he learned of what became of Fire
and wanted her no more
And yet he still loved her
confused and distraught
his anguish and pain
were hard fought
So he became lost
and didnt know what to do
So he left Fire alone
and retreated to the Ocean Blue.

Women can be the most difficult species of creature....No matter what the case it always seems that our female counterparts can never be satisfied with what they have...Everything seems superficial or insignificant if something better can be found...I never thought that such a fickle creature could cause so much pain in one person...Someone who changes their mind and alters their course more often than a bouncing football...Why is it that the guys who only wish to treat their female counterparts like goddesses are the ones that get left hurt, used, and discarded like last weeks Sunday funnies...Entertaining for a day or two and then just a piece of worthless garbage... I try to treat women with the highest amount of respect....and the girl i like ends up falling for the bad guy...the jerk...the abuser....the cheater.....the alcoholic.....the drug user.....I fit none of those stereotypical "bad" guys... and yet I get hurt instead of loved....I am told that there are tons of girls looking for a guy like me....Why can't they find me? I have so much love to give and yet the only girls i seem to find are the ones that are looking for a meaningful one night relationship... I want more than that...I deserve more than that...I can give more than that...Women should not pursue these...bad guys because they want to "tame the beast" a beast can only be tamed if it wants to be....You cannot domesticate any wild animal...Not completely. A small sliver of its wild nature will always linger and who takes the brute force of a loss of control on the "beasts" part....The woman...Women need to look for guys that know that they have dreams too. Women are not mindless zombies meant for giving birth, caring for kids, cooking, cleaning, and grabbing us men a cold one from the fridge. Women are intelligent creations of some higher being put down on this Earth to challenge what we call "man's work" They are here to show that man is not the most powerful being on Earth... He can be bested by the so called, "creation from man" Women have dreams and goals and have every right to strive for those goals and not to be stopped or slowed by the likes of men. But no matter the great beauty both physical and mental that rests in the possession of the woman, nothing will change that women truly are the most difficult species of creature to understand.