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What are we here for?
Not like it matters if we know or not. We'll still live out our lives and die, why does it matter if we know why or not? Its like, do we really need to know the exact moment the Earth was formed? Either way, we're here now and we have problems to work on if we want to keep being here. Why do we bother looking into things that we don't need to know about yet? We can barely take care of the planet we're on now, why should we look for other planets to screw up instead of fixing our own first? Who care's about the survival of the human race if all we do is destroy other species habitats? Instead of worrying so much about where our grand-kids are gonna live we should focus of fixing the place our children are suffering in now. Right?
People are stupid. I'm never gonna think otherwise, our entire existence is stupid. I don't get it.
Today's been slow, it seems they're barely creeping by these days. Weeks are like months now, there's nothing to do. No one's hiring. If I lived in the city I might have thrown myself off a building by now. I've started Tai Chi, sewing, I pick up what I can when there's a mess, and I've been helping the kids and taking care of the animals, but still there's no enough to do in a day. It feels like I'm wasting time and being useless, but there's nothing I can do to remedy it right now. It's really maddening, I hate long days.
I'm trying to quit smoking, but in the mornings its honestly all I can do while i wait for people to wake up and give me tasks. Cleaning my kit and table is about the only activity I can do once the old woman is asleep, other then sitting on my computer. I think this is really killing me. This is it, I'm going to die of boredom.
Yay, bowls dead. Off to sweep the kitchen or something~
 Haifischy · Sat Feb 25, 2012 @ 01:25am · 0 Comments |
