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"It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel"

The secret behind my lack of love belief? It started with a boy. It continued with "love" and "cherishing." And ended with heartbreak.

His name was ******. He left my school for a year or two, then came back. He was awesome before he left, and he returned amazing. whee

We started dating for a while, probably five to six weeks. He said he loved me, and I actually thought he meant it. stare

Then things started to get weird. He would cancel our plans, leave town unexpectedly, and not return my calls. I wasn't calling him everyday, but I did call once a week, and he never returned my calls. He was avoiding me. confused

One day, he came over to my house and asked me a weird question that caught me off guard. "Are you emo?" I told him that emo is a style and cutters are people who cut themselves. He asked me again if I cut myself. I answered him, "I used to. Why?" He didn't say, he just left. cry

He didn't talk to me for four weeks after that. I was so pissed off. He had his best friend dump me for him. What the ********] && the time he actually talked to me, he asked what lesson I was on in math... I said, "Are you ******** serious? You ignore me then ask me about math? ******** you." That was the last thing I said to him. emo

Now I sit in my room, pissed at myself for doing anything that related to love, and just sad that I still love him. Just as much as I did when we were together. He was my first love, and always will be. I can't ever get over him. I thought he was different... crying

So the moral of the story is 'Never let your guard down. Love always bites you in the a** in the end.' sad

"Isn't it sad when he's your Prince Charming, but you're not his Cinderella?"