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While your reading this you better be listening to Jumper by:Third eye blind it goes with this part very well!!! biggrin


TEARS STREAMED DOWN HER FACE AS SHE STEPPED CLOSER TO THE EDGE OF THE 10 STORY BUILDING. SHE LOOKED DOWN AND CLOSED HER EYES, REMEMBERING THE FRANTIC HOURS OF DAWN SHE SPENT SCRIBBLING HER GOODBYE LETTER, AND THEN PUTTING IT ON AMANDA'S NIGHT STAND SO THAT SHE WOULD FIND IT THE NEXT MORNING. JESSICA OPENED HER EYES AND LOOKED AT THE GROUND, WHICH SEEMED TO STRETCH FOR MILES BELOW HER. 'THAT SURE IS A LONG DROP...' SHE THOUGHT, 'MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER IF I USED A WEAPON TO DO THIS...' SHE SHOOK HER HEAD TO CLEAR THE IDEA. 'NO. I SPENT WEEKS THINKING THIS OVER. THIS IS THE BEST WAY SO THAT MY FAMILY WONT BE THE ONES TO FIND ME DEAD. I'M JUMPING. I LOVE YOU CHRISTIAN, I LOVE YOU AMANDA. I EVEN LOVE YOU, KIKI. I'M SO SORRY.... SO SORRY...' JESSICA TOOK ONE LAST BREATH AND TOOK A FEW STEPS BACK. THEN SHE RAN TOWARDS THE EDGE, AND WITH A FLYING LEAP, SHE PLUNGED OVER THE EDGE OF THE BUILDING. SHE FELL THROUGH THE COLD WINTER AIR, THE WIND STINGING HER FACE, HER EYES SQUEEZED SHUT IN FEAR OF SCREAMING.
AND WITHIN SECONDS, SHE WAS DEAD.----- [NEXT CHAPTER]: I HAD BEEN HAVING A HORRIBLE DREAM... SOMETHING BAD WAS HAPPENING TO MY JESSICA, MY BEAUTIFUL JESSICA, AND I COULD DO NOTHING TO STOP IT. I WAS RUNNING TOWARDS HER, CALLING HER NAME, WHEN A DISTANT SOUND INTERRUPTED MY DREAM. I SLOWLY CAME OUT OF MY DAZED SLEEP TO FIND MY PHONE RINGING AT 8:42AM. BUT IF I WOULD'VE KNOWN THAT THE LAST TIME I SAW HER FACE WAS IN THAT HORRIBLE DREAM, I WOULD'VE STAYED SLEEPING. FOR MY LIFE WAS ABOUT TO BECOME AN EVEN WORSE NIGHTMARE.------- I FUMBLED FOR MY PHONE, AND ANSWERED RIGHT BEFORE IT WENT TO VOICEMAIL. "HELLO...?" I MUMBLED WITH SLEEP HEAVY IN MY VOICE. "CHRISTIAN!" A FRANTIC VOICE WAS SOBBING IN THE OTHER END OF THE LINE. I CHECKED THE CALLER ID. "AMANDA?" THE ONLY REASON I KNEW IT WAS HER WAS BECAUSE I HAD LOOKED. I HAD NEVER HEARD HER LIKE THIS BEFORE.... WHAT WAS WRONG? "AMANDA? WHAT'S WRONG?" I ASKED, FULLY AWAKE NOW. "IT'S JESSICA!" SHE CRIED. "SHE'S DEAD!"------ AS SOON AS I HAD HEARD THE NEWS, I HAD JUMPED OUT OF BED AND NEARLY FELL ON MY FACE PUTTING SOME CLOTHES ON. I THEN SPRINTED AS FAST AS I COULD TO THE ADDRESS AMANDA HAD GIVEN ME. IT WAS A TALL BUSINESS BUILDING, PROBABLY 9 OR 10 STORIES TALL. POLICE CARS AND YELLOW 'POLICE LINE DO NOT CROSS' TAPE COVERED THE AREA. I RAN UP TO THE OFFICER IN CHARGE. "WHERE IS SHE?" I SCREAMED. "SHE'S DEAD. I'M SORRY KID." HE REPLIED. "SHE CAN'T BE! SHE CAN'T BE ******* DEAD! SHE CAN'T!!!!!" AMANDA JOGGED UP TO ME. "CHRISTIAN... I'M SORRY.... I CALLED YOU AS SOON AS I HEARD. I GOT THE CALL A FEW MINUTES BEFORE I CALLED YOU, AND RIGHT AFTER WE GOT OFF THE PHONE, I FOUND THIS," SHE HANDED ME AN ENVELOPE WITH JESSICA'S HANDWRITING ON THE FRONT. 'TO THE ONE'S I LOVE' IT SAID. I OPENED THE ENVELOPE, AND WITH SHAKY HANDS, PULLED OUT THE LETTER INSIDE. 'DEAR LOVED ONES' IT READ, 'IF YOU ARE READING THIS, I AM ALREADY DEAD. I'M SORRY IT CAME DOWN TO THIS. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THIS WAS MY ONLY OPTION TO AVOID HAVING ALL MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS WATCH ME SLOWLY DIE AND SUFFER OF THIS CANCER. I'M SORRY I'VE KEPT IT A SECRET FOR SO LONG. I'VE KNOWN FOR ALMOST 2 MONTHS THAT I'VE DEVELOPED A RARE AND TERMINAL CASE OF BRAIN CANCER. THE DOCTOR TOLD ME THAT THERE WAS NO CURE. TREATMENT WOULD ONLY MAKE ME SICKER, AND IT IS ALSO VERY UNFORTUNATE THAT WE FOUND IT WHEN IT WAS TOO LATE. I WOULD HAVE DIED WITHIN WEEKS ANYWAYS, SO PLEASE DON'T BE ANGRY WITH ME. I ALSO WANTED TO APOLOGIZE ON BEHALF OF THE LOCATION AND CAUSE OF MY DEATH. I FIGURED THIS WOULD BE THE BEST WAY SO THAT YOU GUYS WOULD NOT BE THE ONES TO FIND ME DEAD. I COULD NOT BEAR FOR ANY OF YOU TO CARRY THAT TERRIBLE MEMORY. SCOTTIE - THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY SISTER HAPPY AND REMAINING A RESPECTABLE PERSON IN THE EYES OF MY FATHER BEFORE HE DIED. I ALSO THINK IT IS APPROPRIATE TO THANK YOU FOR SAVING KIKI'S LIFE. WITHOUT YOU AND CHRISTIAN, SHE WOULD NOT BE ALIVE. YOU ARE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME. JOSH AND DAVID - YOU GUYS WERE LIKE MY BROTHERS TOO. I'M SORRY I NEVER GOT TO SEE U GUYS GROW UP BIG AND STRONG AND WONDERFUL LIKE BOTH YOUR BROTHERS. KIKI- MY YOUNGEST SIS, I HATE THAT I'M PUTTING YOU AND AMANDA THROUGH THIS. I KNOW YOU GUYS HAVE LOST SO MUCH ALREADY. BY THE WAY, I LIED. THERE ARE NO MONSTERS UNDER YOUR BED OR IN YOUR CLOSET. SORRY, WE WERE JUST TRYING TO GET YOU TO LISTEN TO US. JUST PLEASE LISTEN TO AMANDA. SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE'S TALKING ABOUT (MOST OF THE TIME). AMANDA - THANK YOU FOR BEING AN AWESOME BIG SISTER AND CARING FOR US WHEN WE HAD NOTHING LEFT. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M PUTTING YET ANOTHER INCREDIBLE BURDEN ON YOUR SHOULDERS, BUT I KNOW HOW STRONG YOU ARE. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. OH, AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR BABY WELL AND STRONG. CHRISTIAN - MY LOVE... THERE ARE SO MANY WORDS BUT SO LITTLE TIME BEFORE IT IS TIME FOR ME TO END THIS. I LOVE YOU. I KNOW NEITHER OF US REALLY SAID IT TO EACH OTHER, BUT I KNOW YOU FELT IT. I KNOW I DID. I WISH WE COULD'VE SPENT FOREVER TOGETHER. I REALLY DO... SO I'M SORRY FOR DOING THIS TO YOU MOST OF ALL. I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY, AND YOU DON'T NEED ME FOR THAT. IT'S OK TO MOVE ON AND LOVE SOMEONE ELSE. YOU DESERVE IT... I'M VERY SORRY TO SAY BUT IT IS NOW 5AM. THE SUN IS SOON TO RISE, AND I MUST BE ON MY WAY IF I'M NOT TO BE STOPPED BY ANYONE TRYING TO PREVENT THIS. GOODBYE. I LOVE YOU ALL. LOVE, JESSICA'
TEARS STREAMED DOWN ALL OF OUR FACES. WE CRIED UNTILL WE GOT TO SEE HER FOR ONE LAST TIME, AT HER FUNERAL. BY THIS TIME WE WERE BALLING. ON HER GRAVE STONE, IT SAID ' JESSICA RAINN OCTOBER 19, 1995 - February 14, 2010 A BELOVED DAUGHTER, SISTER, AND FRIEND TO ALL'