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"Think about your personality 3 years ago. Sure, that was a long time ago, but what personality traits have you lost since then? What personality traits have you gained?"

Three years doesn't actually seem that long to me in reality. Not all that much has changed for me in the last three years. I'm still a member of Gaia, I'm still with Steve, I'm still not living with my parents anymore, and I still use IM as the major way I keep in contact with friends.

The biggest change in my personality that I notice is that I'm alot wittier than I used to be xd I can think of something funny to say on the spot alot easier than I used to be able to, and half the time, it's already coming out of my mouth before I even think of how what I'm about to say might be funny. I've definitely picked that up from being around Steve and his friends.

I'm also more outgoing than I used to be. I'm still pretty self-conscious about what people think of what I do, so that still holds me back some, but I'm noticing myself being surrounded by people who are alot more like how I am when I'm comfortable around someone, and so that makes it easier for me to be myself around them, and be more outgoing in the process.

Other than that, I don't think really alot has changed about my core personality, I just think that different attributes have had more of a chance to shine through in more recent years.

Like leadership. Even though I'm not outgoing, I think I'm pretty adept at being in a role of leadership. As soon as you tell me that I am in charge of something, and these people are going to be under me, I stop worrying about if the people are going to like me or not, or if they are going to question my motives as a person. They know that for whatever reason I was chosen to be in charge of something, and I feel I handle myself in a professional enough way that even if they don't like me as a person, they'll respect what I'm asking them to do as their leader.

A big thing that affects my personality now, however, is that I don't worry about money as much anymore. This time of year three years ago I would have just finished getting things sorted out for spring semester of my Junior year which meant that money issues would have popped up again. I had trouble with money all through school, because I only worked on average, 40 hours a month. I also was only able to get about 8k a year in federal loans, leaving me with about that much out of pocket for school. I couldn't get personal student loans b/c I didn't have enough credit established at the time, and my parents refused to help all the while refusing to stop claiming me on their taxes, even though I didn't live with them anymore, so I couldn't file as an independent and get more in financial aid help. So the beginning of each semester was a hassle, trying to figure out what we could do to get me the money so I didn't have to drop out and move back to the middle of nowhere and live the rest of my life in a dead end job some place I hated. It always caused alot of anxiety, and lots of time of me freaking out, crying, being lame, and being uber depressed.

Nowadays, I'm not "well off" but I'm doing alot better financially. Especially with my new job. I make enough over the course of two weeks to cover my share of the rent and what I owe for my federal student loans. The other two weeks covers necessities: cable, power, phone, food. And I still have money left over to set aside for the wedding. Which is good b/c I don't want the wedding to be a financial nightmare xd

You know, this almost makes me want to make a nohari/johari, get as many people as I can to respond to it over the course of a month, and then in a few years, make a new one and see what changes and what stays the same xd hell, the last time I had someone doing one of those was almost exactly a year ago, it'd be fun to see what changes between now and then even xd

But not now. I'm at work ninja I've been working on this entry all day on and off between tasks at work rofl

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