Heeey now I am gonna rant on about my pethetic life biggrin if you care to read awsome! If not that is okay too 'cause I suspect it is gonna be long..because I am pissed.... stare I want to say sorry ahead of time for my language okay....I am mad and ya...need to get it out before I kill myself...If you actrully read all this...you actrully care...if you don't that is cool too because it is hella long..... Okay here I go...
Okay, I will start my awsome rant....I hate being ignored...Does anyone know why? Well....I have been ignored for too long...1: my mom married the biggest a** anyone can meet...2: People are JUST relizing that I am part bipoler...3: My mom just relized about 1-2 years ago that I have more up an' down days than I have ever had before[meaning I will go from Super happy than when someone says one stupid a** thing I go to super upset in one secound...] 4: Oh yes, and I just relized that when I am alone....I talk to myself..and I actrully have an awsome time....A better time than talking to someone eles...
Ya......I hate living sometimes......The only reason I live is because I know if I die a lot of my closets friends would go into depression and my mom as well.....many people would.....I don't know why they like this b***h here...but they do....and I love them back.....
Sometimes I think I give a lot of love out.....I think I give more love than I have....but I think I think too much.....As you can tell so far I am super down...I am down because people make me down...right now if someone tryed to make me laugh I would smile and than frown again......
I don't mean to make any of you scared that I am going to kill myself because I won't......But I really want to.......Okay tears coming...s**t.....I cry too much.....
I have one question...why do people like to die when they are afraid of death.....I don't understand that........Ya.....My favorite thing to do is to sit in a corner of life..put headphones on and watch ignorant people walk by me doing the most stupidest things a human can do.....I do try to help sometimes.....buut....when I help and they are happy...I get the butt and they walk off.....How ******** up is that......Oh ya when people are mad...guess who gets it? Me...I am the perfect punching bag.....and I don't know why......I sound emo...Oh yes, becuase I am...NOT THE CUTTING-SAITAIN WORSHIPING KIND DAMNIT! The kind that control her emotions because they were played with sooo ******** much........
Okay, I am done for now.....I didn't want reveal too much of me..I am a happy person y'all just sometimes I look to the past and get pissed.....
If you get to this bottom part I loves you lots heart I am feeling better now smile heart heart *huggles* Okay need sleep taking care of a heated dog tomarrow [she's my gf xD] Hehehe much loves for ya people byes heart
