((Prepare to be just a little freaked out... Daku has lost more of his midn than I thought.))
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Why is the happening to me? It's so calm... but so terrible... Why?
It's just that... that Raven... ... It doesn't matter to her, but... she doesn't understand how much she means to me... I just can't go on... I... ugh I don't know what I'm trying to say...
Maybe if... I could give Raven a glimpse of what it feels like... Maybe... just maybe she would begin to understand.
It's... not like it's her fault though... She does her best to try and undertsand, and maybe she kinda does a little... but it doesn't compare to what I feel like now.
I'm... locked in a room. It's dark... and cold... everything is broken on the floor, I'm sitting on the bed typing this.
I have a knife beside me.
Long... sharp knife.
It's scary, though... Why is it there? I... have it... but... why?
I spend hours just... staring at it... I think of Raven a lot. I don't blink when I'm staring at it. The feeling I get is strange... I can't explain it...
Every... now and then I hear something... Someone.... Telling me to take it in my hand...
I did.
It was like... I was possessed... I took the knife... and I starting to push the blade against my arm... I watched the blood drip out and slide away...
I don't feel anything. No pain. I'm not sure how many times I've done it now... The voices... they don't go away.
I'm starting to feel dizzy now.... A little light headed. It's so dark in here I can only see to the end of the bed... The only light is the laptop screen... There is someone watching me.
Someone is here. In the room... With me.
I can see her. Just a little girl. She's standing behind the bed. Long, black hair. It goes over her face, and her skin his pale. Torn. I can't see her face... just... shadows, because her head is always down... and her hair covers her face. She doesn't say anything, she just stands there.
I don't talk to her either. She doesn't even move. ...I think she's making the voices...
I'm holding the knife now. I must have cut myself a lot... there's blood everywhere... It's all over me. All over the bed.
The girl... She's... she's in front of me now. She just appeared there. In the shadows. She's holding a long kinfe... She's talking now, too... Her voice is... eerie... I can't understand what she's saying... like she's hissing it to herself...
The knife... I didn't even know it, but I... I'm holding it against my neck... The girl... she's doing this. There are... shadows... shadows coming off of her. Their swirling like energy. And everything is so dark. Pitch Black.
I can feel the blade... The sharp, cold... metal. It's getting darker and darker... And colder, too. The blood is warm, though... But... but my skin is so cold...
Wait. The girl. She's lifting her hand. So... so very slowly. I can see her face now, the hair is parting as slowly as she lifts her hand. She's not really alive... She's... she's dead. The bottom half of her mouth is gone... bloody. The skin around her left eyes is gone. My heart is beating... so fast. I'm shaking so much. I'm scared. I can understand her now. She's telling me to die. She's going to kill me.
I'm so scared, Raven... I love you.
I don't want to--
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[I'm coming]
 PirateElf · Sat Feb 12, 2005 @ 01:57am · 2 Comments |
