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Wow, I can't wait to get to art class tomorrow. Since I still have poster board left over from my senior poster, I can use that. This is going to be very different than what I've done before but if I can keep the right atmosphere in my mind, it could be....so beatiful.

Yes, this is a definate change in my natural appearance to those who know me but...well, I know I've never mentioned it. But I have been aching to create emotions on paper. The types of emotions you can't explain. For instance, that overwhelming joy you feel suddenly that seems to form your entire day into something special? (I don't expect many to understand)
Or the overwhelming pain of lonelyness that seems to engulf your life in seconds?
Or perhaps (Yes, I'm such a sad case) unrequitted love? Knowing their answer and stepping to the side so that, despite the circumstances, you can still bask quietly in their glorious light without being noticed?
THAT is what I want to paint. I want the joy, sorrow, love, pain, hatred, nausea, spur-of-the-moment, pride and loss. Although I've been told that emotion can be the one thing that destroys you...well, I'm going to try. I seem to mirror man's weakness more and more each day....I hate moths...