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My my my...I've just been switching between every which mood this week. I'm sure that this cold has something to do with it but...AEIIIIII! Let me give a small demonstration of my mood swings that happened in ONE hour....give or take 30 minutes. I really lost track of time.

Bored-
Looking for remedy to nightmare issue last night-
inspiration to draw?-
Sean! Happy place has been reached!-
Ah! Make art with shaun inspiration!-
I don't even know if he likes me! I've been making up too many reasons not to talk to him...-
Bee had a strange dream last night too...funny...-
Oh, my heart skips a beat every time I see or even hear him!-
If only I didn't have this cold...-
This heart is burning! I've had a few simple crushes before but why is this one so painful and utterly wonderful?! I don't understand my feelings anymore!-
I feel like I'm two people! It scares me so much to suddenly feel as though I'm watching my own life! And yet this girl I see...that can't be me...-
I'm so alone...After visiting Catherine at her college, I feel so....left out. Why am I so incapable of relationships? I walk alone, I walk alone-
Where's Mom, already...?-
Oh! I have some markers in my bag! I can make a small artsy item!-
But I don't have any blank paper in which to draw him... -
Of course! Like our art teacher has been telling us! Do something over another piece! *digs through bag and grabs sketch book and draws small idolization-
He's so incredible...I'm not worthy to be with him...-
Kc had a strange dream recently too...but then again she's always had strange dreams...-
Who is this person?!-
My heart aches...so much...-
"Ignoramus!"-
He hates me!-
But I can't help it! I just have to be around him no matter what I do! It makes me so happy!-
And yet so sad...-
I could do this! Or this! Oh, if only my hands would listen to me more!-
Would he even understand...?-
"I'm not ok with YOU here!-
I need to get out of here! Why are there two of me?!-
Come on, Mom! I want to go home!-
I think I'm going to take a long shower....and just sit in the tub and let the water run over me...-
Oh, yeah! I wanted to paint something black and sketch rain drops on it!-
Is it possible to feel this incredible?!-
and at the same time to miserable...?



....Yes, that is only the gist of it. I went through each and every one of these ALL night long sweatdrop