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Day-34: Hurtful
On sunday I did something hurt to my girl... I hate myself for it... well I had a massive infection that I had t wait untill it worked out of my system and when I did I went to a friends house the first day I was "allowed" out of the house I went there well my girl was having a bad! week and everythign for her school was going to s**t I mean she would not gradulate from highschool becuase the school ******** her around well anyways I went over to my friends but not my girlfriends and gusse what...I got in s**t with my girl xp ******** I pissed her off hardcore..so I go to her house and I was sitting on her bed with her in my arms and one question popped up and she said "so where were you on Friday?" and I didn't want to lie so I told her the truth "I was at Reva's..." well that was my downfall... she gets out my arms and looks at me with a hatred look in her eyes I mean she aboultly hated me that second so he get up and storm right out of her room and upstairs as her room was in the basement...I knew for a second I pissed ehr off and I said "ahhhhhhh ********..." and I laid back on her bed with my arms resting against my forehead. After 2 minutes she came back and she sat in her chair in her room and crossed her legs and just looked at me and asked her to talk about it and she said nothing so I knew it was my fault and it was so I had to amke it right again. So I got up and walked over to her and layed my head in her lap she didn't do nothing so I apologized fior what I did and told her I was very sorry and it wouldn't happen ever again well I felt like crap afterwards I didn't want to hurt like that and I didn't even mean to hurt her then she tell me he doesn't like the idea of me hanging out with my friend but I had to defend myself on that one "so I can't see my friends now 90% of my friends are female you know...." I said to her and she shook her to correct me "I didn't say that I just don't like the idea...I can't stop you but I don't have to like it....I don't mind cassy your lesbian friend btu reva I'm not sure about" I sighed "Reva even said if you don't like the idea about me hanging with her you can meet her and see hows she like" and my girlfriend shook her head no so....ya thats what happen to me on the weekend and to tell the truth I still feel like crap Is there any point in life when I will actually be happy?
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