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I'm not to sure if I should have a party now .. Everyone's being .. Bitchy. Britt and Hattie won't talk to me all cause I told Ashlynn some things about everyone. Okay, so I told her everything about everyone .. EVERYONE! Including me! Alisa did it too so I'm not the only one to blame here .. I shouldn't even care. So what if they're mad at me for sharring some information about them? Who cares?! It's not like I told their mom's or anything .. Although I could .... But I won't. Cause I love my friends. I don't think I could live without them .. They give me support when it's needed. And I'm sure Britt thinks that I betrayed them .. I kinda did .. But I'm not sorry for it. I did what I did cause I could. So, Britt, when you read this .. I guess that's why I told. And plus she asked. How could I resist talking about you guys? Okay, I'm going to be honest now. I talk about all of you all the time. Yeah. Everyone does it. They can't help it. We're all only human and we have a need to gossip about one another. But think of it like this: At least you're remembered. Even though most of the time it's never good.
But really, I shouldn't let all this s**t get in the way of my party. But .. I can't help but feel the following: Britt won't come cause Will's not coming. (I hate him so much!) Hattie and Alisa won't go in cause they don't like scary things. (I can understand that one) Alex would just hang all over Alisa and Hattie cause he's a b*****d. (He pisses me off.) Sierria will hit Eric every chance she gets cause she hates him. (Now that one I can really understand.) And Eric will hang all over me cause he likes me a lot. (Which I don't like cause I just want to get through the damn place!) And me ... I'll be so pissed off by the time we take the first step off the damn car that I'll yell at everyone about everything. I doubt that anyone will show anyways .. What with the way things have been going on. It's bull s**t. I just want a good and fun party. But I guess that Birthday wish will never come true ...
Man oh man. I've been writing for quite some time now .. I should stop before I put anything stupid on here ... Oh wait! I already did! Oh well!! xD

~* Brii brii *~

Ps: This little bit goes out to the Flock:

... Grow up. Don't let one little thing hold you down like a ton of bricks. Move on with your life so .. You can forget the bad and remember the good for once. People make mistakes. Most of the time cause they don't know any better. So forgive them and be stronger than them for doing so. I've forgiven all of you for things that I thought was so wrong. I did it so we could always be together .. Not only as friends, a flock .. But as a family. We're all there for each other. And some of you still don't see that. You compare one another's problems to your own and you trust that person instantly. We've known each other far to long for this behavior to still be going on with us. I hope this time .. It really sinks in that we ARE falling apart. And we CAN fix it if some of you just look beyond what you see instead of what's in front of you .. I'm only saying this cause I feel it's the right thing to say.