::sigh:: It's been a long week, actually it's been a really long difficult year. First the car accident, then the baby, and now one of my husband's best friends died Thursday. It's actually taken quite a toll on me. I cry a little each day and have been dreaming about him since then. It's annoying the place you should be able to rest is in your dreams, but I'm thinking even then. Today I'm going back to Gainesville to see my baby. I'm so depressed about that too. I'm just tired of him being sick. I'm upset because I know he's in a lot of pain and I just want him to be better. I want to bring my baby home, it's not fair that other women have babies and get to take them home and have all that time with them and I can't. I didn't do anything wrong. I was perfect during my pregnancy. All I ever did was worry that I was doing everything right and then this happens. He'll be 3 months old on the 26th. The Dr told us on Friday that they couldn't do the surgery he needs for another month. So then after they do that we have to wait at least 2 weeks for him to recover from that then we can bring him home. That's only if everything goes right. So then we have 6 more weeks (a month and two weeks) if things go perfectly, but considering all the problems we had I don't know if that will happen. It's very hard to keep faith when all this things keep happening..................Ok I got distracted and lost my train of thought. So, I guess I'll go now. bye-bye
Jennielee-chan Community Member 
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