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So far school hasnt been so great. I first show up and the news of my ex and I breaking up has finally gotten around and everyone is coming up to me saying "Why did you two break up? You were so cute together!" Than I come to find out that she is blaming me for the things that she had done. Before we broke up she was saying that she couldnt wait to "have" me again and that she wants to try and have another baby since the last one died. At school, a friend tells me she was saying that all I wanted from her was sex and I was using our unborn child against her..... I just want to curl up in a corner and die. Cheating on me isnt bad enough for her she has to rub it all in and make me that bad guy.
I had to go change my schedual for school because the year before we had made sure to get classes together and half of my schedual would be with her. I ended up sluffing most of my first week of school because I couldnt change my schedual until after school and I didnt even want to see my ex. When I finally did see her it was just breifly and I ran off to hide and gather myself together. I went to inside to talk to my cousilor who has been there for the two of us and I see her again and one of our best friends is talking to her (Shorty). Shorty comes and talks to me and all I can tell her is I need to see my counsilor, and when I finally do I close the door, practically run up to him in a big hug and cried my eyes out...... I didnt know that this could hurt so much.... After a year and a half she says she dosent love me anymore and dumps me for some crack pot guy 2-3 years older than her. We were even engaged! We had plans for the future and even a few days before her new boyfriend told her to dump me for him she was talking about how great our future together would be..... I just want to run away or curl up in a corner and be forgoten or go back to a time when things were perfect and noone could seperate us..... I dont know what I did wrong.... And nothing will bring her back.