i was in towns again today talking to some ppl and i had to go and help my dad with some groceries and when i came back everyone had ditched me and i was alone again cry
but oh well i guess i desearve it for one reason or another
i wonder if i'm gonna be alone at school again like i was last year
ate my lunch then sat in a stair well for 40 minutes and stare at the ground untill the bell rang then go to my next class
i had no friends in my classes either it sucked i kinda got jealous of the ppl who would be having so much fun with thier friends
i'd always think i try to be nice to everyone and i'd be so generous ppl would come up to me and ask if i had money so they could have lunch and 9 times outta 10 i'd give them my lunch money so they wouldn't starve
yet all the friends i did have ditched me and i didn't make anymore
i always thought what the hell is wrong with me why am i not aloud to have friends what am i doing wrong
i always felt so alone no one cared for me
like it was my fate to be alone forever
watched all my friends make new friends get b/fs and be so happy
and there was me alone they didn't even bother talking to me anymore
i was alone trapped in my darkness
but then a very special person came into my life
he lit up that darkness
took away my lonelyness
wiped away my tears
and wraped me in love
i thank the gods everyday that he's in my life
without him i'd be lost
i love and care for him deeply
with my whole heart
my soul
my body
my mind
my being
he's a part of me
he's my life
he's my everything
i love you Neil
and always will
...::.::.:: Becca ::.::.::...
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