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My life is a new horrible outcome on a chain of events, which I have NO control over. And now it's all colliding into tonight. Yes, UGH.
My cousin, my age, sexually molested my little sister. And my mom favors her now and she hates practically my whole Dad's side of the family. I still talk to my cousin online, cause he is STILL family! And my mom and dad are screaming and yelling and slamming doors, and I'm not gonna go down there and find out why. My dad went down and sat with my little siblings. And my mom, seeing I was ungaurded by my honest, openminded father, she came up and got RIGHT in my face. She said next time I talk to him or his mother to tell them that she's taking legal action to stop them from ever calling our house again. And there's our ANNUAL family reunion coming up in September. And they plan on going. But my mother says that NO ONE wants him around their kids, meaning SHE doesn't. So SHE says WE'RE not going! The first time in HISTORY, WE are NOT going! And my mom complained to my grandpa about ALL of this. And so she's trying to stop them from going! And even if they don't! She says WE WILL NOT GO! AND I HARDLY EVER SEE MY FAMILY! And I miss my most favorite Aunt in the world! And my mom is blaming everything on me! My sister wouldn't do her chore, and my mom blames it on me because I "made fun of her" so, my sister's in a bad mood. And I'm freaking out cause someone I like dearly is dying. And my uncle on my mom's side is dying. And I never really talk to him, just sit in awe as he plays his guitar at Christmas. And now I find out HE'S dying too! And I'm crying because no one knows when and I don't know what to do! And DAMMIT! I am NOT dating Soren! And Erik can't GET a joke! And the only way to describe the situation is RETARDED!!!

. . . So I'm self destructive.