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Silence is probably one of the most dreaded things that can exist when you're anxious.

Suffering that, then being told it was all a trick hurts the most.
My beloved did that today.
I was worried beyond beleif over him, because he said Andrew was going to 'get him' with a pocket knife.

Then he signs off.
I fret,
I worry,
I IM my best friend.
I end up ripping off my best friends head.
My love signs on again.
He tells me it was a trick.

I'm unimpressed,
if not, a little angry and dissapointed.

Why did he do that?
What was the point behind it all?
I love him still, yes.
But why put me through that?
Why make me wonder, if the one person who makes me feel like I AM a wanted, needed person, why make me wonder if he's on the floor, bleeding to death?
Why frighten me, as to ponder if we'll ever have a life together?
Why make me wonder,
if he's dead?
If
YOU'RE
dead.

Whats the point?
Why?
Why?

I still love you, you know.
I always will.
But don't do that again.