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I'm tired beyond all reason so, I get to have a rant here that I'll certainly regret later. The only reason I do this is because me being tired is the closest equivilant to "s**t Faced Drunk" I can think of for me.

Anywho, why is it that people feel the need to do things to irk me once they have already hurt me? Seriously people, you don't have to remind me about certain things that HAVE ALREADY BEEN ON MY MIND FOR DAYS because it hurts me bad enough that I can't let go of some things. Not exactly a pleasant thing waking up at o'dark thirty in the morning to a nice little reminder about just how shitty my life really is, you know?

Telling lies about me behind my back bothers me to no end to. I mean...sweet tap dancing Christ on a cracker people...If you want to talk smack about me, then just say it to my face so I can defend against the false slings and arrows instead of trying to appear a saint by spreading falsehoods. It's not so much the lying about me that bothers me really. People have been doing that nonsense to me for years because I lived around far too many grown up children for my own good. The thing that bothers me is that people believe these poorly told yarns and think that I'M the liar! You can call me whatever sort of names you desire people and I don't give half a roasted rat's a**, but I am no liar.

So much s**t to deal with in life...So much to deal with online...No one to help me...I've been in this circle before, I know where it leads and frankly...I don't like it.

You know in Episode I how Yoda gives his "Fear leads to Anger. Anger Leads to Hate. Hate...Leads to Suffering" line? Well that little circle I described and loathe above is all one little paraphrase of Yoda's schpiel except that everything leads to Lonliness and Angst.

Once again...I don't like this circle.