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Weaknesses and Strengths
I made a lot of mistakes so I am speaking from personal experiences. I know it's hard to keep yourself from repeating them but make an effort to change for the better. That's what I had done. I don't change for them. I change for myself because number 1: I want to be a better person than I was yesterday and the day before that and the day before that day, you know what I'm saying? Number 2: I want to learn how to improve my bonding experiences with the people I love. They aren't toxic. They are mature people who have experiences of their own, both good and bad. They try to help and they also try to teach but at the same time they want me to be myself, for the better. And they are real people so of course their moods have ups and downs like I myself have. But they are trying their hardest. They truly are good people. Loyal and loving. That's who they are. They value friendships and family. I adore my family so damn much. I love chilling out with them, hanging out with them, watching their moods variety. If things goes bad, I try my hardest to find a way to help, even if it means stay quiet and listen to them talk. Sometimes they just need someone to listen. So this is one of many ways to help. Though to be honest... I can only do so much online. So there is no physical touching. Because whenever I see people upset or sad, I want to hug them so much. -uv; so I have to figure what to say the right way to help them. It's a long progress because I'm not good with words. I'm very good at hugging and snuggling. Words... it'll be a long way for me but I know personally that it's not impossible. I can do it. I just need to pay attention more to what I say and think. Try to figure out what to say. I don't want to say the words "I don't know how to help" because it would make me look like I don't want to make an effort or make me look like I don't care when I truly care way too much. I remember something, the old saying maybe? Anyway it goes like this "improve your weaknesses and turn them into your strengths." That's what I want to do. I want to improve my weaknesses and turn them into my personal strengths. Improve myself as the better person for tomorrow, for the future. However I know I cannot do that alone. Because if I'm alone without my beloved family and friends, I would never notice my flaws and would never feel emotions. They would be just stable and dull. No crying, no laughing, no everything in the between. As a result, I would be in this stage where I wouldn't go backwards or go forward and wouldn't grow at all. I was in that stage for a while before meeting my currently beloved Clan. That's why I'm very glad we met. Because of them, I noticed my flaws and my strengths that I had no idea I had. With my weaknesses, they helped improving. Yes sometimes I repeat the same mistakes over and over but slowly, I started to improve the mistake and learned from it. With it, I was able to start moving forward and grow. Being with the Clan for 2 years taught me a lot about myself as a person and as a group member. I know that being with the Clan for the years to come, I'll continue growing as a person and a clan member. I'm hoping I taught them something in return. -uv I truly adore them. I want to stay with them forever. -uv I love you guys so much. You guys have always been a part of my heart and my memories that I will never let go or turn my back on. <3 You know who you are. *blows a kiss* -uv
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