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Well here i go again. Yet another online journal. Just how many ppl need to know what i do everyday? i mean seriously...anywho, here's what's up.

I'm so messed up emotionally. I can't say much cause the 2 ppl that are messed up with this may get the wrong impression and become sad or upset at me. Anywho, i have 2 guys who like me...alot. The first one...we'll call him..hmm...Guitar (you heard me! XD) anywho, Guitar and i had been "together" for a while, although we never really said we were going out. it was just a mutual liking of each other and such. I mean he really cared for me and i cared for him just as much. But then i didn't see him for a month, so i moved on. I fell in love with another guy, although i still really liked..perhaps loved Guitar. Well, this other guy, we'll call him, Snowboarder, asked me out after knowing him for like 2 or so weeks. I said yes and decided that Guitar just didn't like me anymore...that he hated me or something like that. i didn't know what to think. I emailed him and Pmed him and everything i could think of to see what was up. he never replied...Well, the other day...they both magically appeared online at the same time...>.< Gah..wasn't good. My msn name just happens to be my bf's name and mine...so Guitar was like: what's up with this? So i had to explain to him that i had a bf...he seemed hurt...and then my bf was like: this is all my fault i shouldn't have asked you out, even though i fell in love with you. So i'm stuck between a rock in a hard spot. I've informed Snowboarder that this was totally NOT his fault because i didn't tell him about Guitar, and it's kinda Guitar's fault anyway, he didn't tell me he was gonna be gone...he's been studying for finals...>.> Anywho, i'm so confused and messed up...

If either of the ppl i'm talking about read this...DON'T LEAVE ME OR QUIT BEING MY FRIEND BECAUSE OF THIS SITUATION...WE'LL FIGURE SOMETHIGN OUT!!

<3
~Naoko