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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
On my Mind
I thought of a cute bit for a toast at my Grad Party:
"I consider myself very lucky. Not many people get their degree by reading Anne Rice, The Island of Doctor Moreau, and more Shakespeare plays than I could ever wish for. For those that don't understand the references, I spent my last two semesters reading materials like The Walking Dead, True Blood, Game of Thrones, and Twilight (Anne Rice's The Mummy). I have made my close friends very jealous and all other English majors that I've compared classes to.
More importantly, two years ago I would have never imagined that I could take charge of my own future like this. I'm lucky to have a family that has given me space and time enough to figure things out. So let's make this toast to my parents and towards a bright future for us all"
I get a little teary eyed thinking about it, lol.

I started up a conversation with Deveraux partially because I just realized that I ******** up by ending it to abruptly ( don't want her to have leftovers from the relationships hanging over her head ) and also because when I graduate, I want to leave all of them behind. I had to explain to Dev how I don't fit Jordan in that set of HS people since Jordan and I really became close AFTER high school. I see her as a college friend, with extra bonus footage from high school like sharing our drawings and her sweet laugh. Yes, I do remember her laugh very well in my mind. I don't remember much of Dev from high school anymore, but that might be the erasing process already making progress. I can't ever be friends with her again. If we were working together, maybe... otherwise I won't do it. It's a bit awkward talking to her because she keeps asking things about my personal life n'stuff to catch-up like we are friends but I don't think she has those intentions in mind when she asks. She was a sweet kid, and I'm pretty sure that's all that is going on. Shrug. W/e

I got stood-up for a date last night by a guy from Tinder. He attempted to start up some smut talk Friday night but I wasn't having it because I had an AWFUL day ( Kaiser gave me the run around all day to get my meds refilled when my person would be out until the 19th so there was no way initially for me to get a refill ). It was a terrible day. But yeah, one of those guys that wants you to entertain him and smut because he wants it, not because he likes you or who you are. Yup. But, I thought I'd give him the benefit of the doubt and went to the bar anyway, no show so I had a drink and left.

Didja notice I changed my username? Yup. My buddy also divorced me with no explanation. I mean, it's okay in that I told her if she ever wanted to there was nothing holding her back, but I would have liked some kind of notice or mention of why. I figure that it is due to the fact she runs a different crowd now and I am not as active as I once was. No hard feelings, well... but I am a bit sad that she did it in that manner... so maybe a little soreness? No super biggie.

My shoulder has been injured for two weeks now? I think I might have sprained it or pulled it or somethin... NOT GOING TO KAISER FOR DAMN SURE, lol. Haha. ******** KAISER! THOSE DICKWADS.

OOoooH! I watched a fun movie: Mental. It had really funny parts that I could relate to, not in that crazy person sort of way but that eccentric silly person sort of way like the mom wants to be a Von Trapp ( from Sound of Music ). Yeah, I'm serious and it was really fun silliness.






User Comments: [1]
Metropol Rubbish
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Fri Nov 20, 2015 @ 12:11am


I feel like a creeper reading your journal.
It's really sweet of you to say that and I think about you often! I'm so happy for you graduating too c:
The name change threw me off so badly.


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