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I dunno...im just really bored...

The day was young. A crisp of wind shook the brightly colored autumn leaves from their tiny perches atop the vast branches, giving it an almost magical effect as koku looked up from her rest. She had been leaning on the rough bark of a particulalrly large oak tree when she realized how much time had gone passed. Koku sighed wearily as a larger oak leaf landed on her head. She gingerly picked up up, feeling the soft fleshy exterior. This one was still green, which made her realize something was in the tree above her. She reached for her dagger and stood up quickly, wheeling around and looking at the tree, but alas, it was but a meer squirrel. She sighed and returned to resting.

DUM DA DA DUM!11!1!!!1!111!@21@!!@@!!!!one

Dont ask. im really really REALLY bored. ooh! i get to shred papers! 4laugh Yay me!
But first, for some personal life...

I found myself lookng at the moon a few nights ago. It was one of those times where if you looked west you ould just see the tip of the sun peeking from behind criag mountains, and if you looked straight up you could see the broken crecent of the moon. It was simply beautiful. It was at that time that i realized how vast this life was...how fragile it is....anything can happen and there are so many things we cant prevent......but i wasnt scared...i had accepted the fact that everyone has to die when my very first friend had left me. He died of something that's brobably childsplay compared to what things are turning into now, but none the less he was killed by the death grip of lucimia. Im sure many of you know how it feels to loose a loved one, but i was one of those special cases..one of those people who didnt cry at the funural and was frowned apon for doing so....I was one of those people who was nieve and in denile. I was the one who didnt know the meaning of death. but a few days later my mother gave me a brief explanation: "Its when you sleep and never wake up." she said. But me, (being a very intuitive child) went to bed early and brooded over what she ment for the rest of the night. Had he really gone to sleep? was he now living a dream? what if we were the ones dreaming, and his eyes were opened to the 'real world?' ...dont mind my childish banter...you can stop reading this if you want. its mostly for my personal views on life, so i can see that they are probably boring to others.
And I have still never really decided what had happened to him. in my mind i have at least a hundred possibilities that might, or might not be death...and one of them is that all my guesses are wrong. One minute you could be alive and well...the next someone might have killed you or something...you might have just died mysteriously...and thats whan i started to show retaliation towards my religion. about three years later i questioned god's word. everyone gawked at me, but i stood strong and asked my question again. and this question was, "Why does god only send only the bad to hell?"But no one answered my question so i took my seat. from them on, i've had my own beliefe about god. "Good things hapen to good people" Yeah. right. I trued to be as sweet as honey, but no. no. I had to go and have a crappy life. Nice. Well god, you really screwed up on your paperwork, havent you? There are plenty of good people STARVING to death in other parts of the world. there are some sick basterds in tuxidos, but i guess the world has to have atleast some misfits. there would be no one to make fun of if it wasnt for us.
Again i apologise for my childish banter and keeping you here so long... ill take my leave now.