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9 days since I last wrote. A week and 2 days. Pathetic. I should write more, as I am almost always on in the early morning hours.

So last Monday I had my therapy appt right? Well, I discussed with my therapist about getting a PTSD diagnostic test done. She said she could do that, just by asking a few questions. So I said why not do that(I needed to get it done anyways, to make sure I wasn't just paranoid over my ex, who had hurt me mentally and verbally pretty bad when we had been together before he got taken away). So she asked me some basic questions. After I answered them all, she said I definitely have it and that it can be easily treated. So now that I know that(and that's on top of the Bipolar type 2 that I already have, mind u), I just need to remind her on the Monday that is on the same week as my shrink appt(1 October is when the appt for my shrink) to send him an e-mail stating that she has diagnosed me with PTSD and to have him discuss treatment options for it. Now that's said and done...

I wonder what my outcome for my Depakote levels are? Hopefully we can come down to the bottom of this and figure out what needs to be done. This is all just a big confusing mess right now. *sigh*

I have been having a lot of nightmares. Well, they just barely started. The first one was yesterday morning(after I went back to bed after my dad dropped me off). It was horrid. Then the second one was yesterday evening(during my naptime). Good grief. My ex was in both those! Stupid thing is, he just randomly shows up out of nowhere and starts talking to me in the nightmare and I start panicking and freaking out and getting all paranoid over it. *sigh* I know it's just going to get more and more worse for me as time goes on. One of my friends on MoodTracker told me in one of her replies to my thread about my issues, that there is a medication out there that helps with that nightmare stuff. I don't know about that. If it's one for nightmares, it might also be a prescription sleep aid. I don't need that kind of stuff in my system. I have been weaned off that stuff for over several months now, and I am doing great without them. I fall asleep perfectly. It's just the nightmares that wake me up. I used to wake up from those nightmares quietly. Now I wake up from them with a real loud gasp. Sounds like night terrors to me. Although, maybe that might be an overstatement. I dunno.

When I went to my shrink appt last, he had ordered up for me to get a lab done, right? Well. It took me a week to get back there to get my labs done. Then on top of that they had me wait 20 minutes to get it taken care of, because there were a lot of people there for appts and labs to do. It was hectic that day. I ended up getting it taken care of. I think that day I also had to get my pills. Or was it a diff day? No wait. It was that day. I remember, because right after, I treated myself out to Italian food. That and I left by *accident* my pills on the bus. So I had to wait for the bus to get to the mall again before I could retrieve them and head to dinner. That was fun. Not. Actually it was. I got to continue reading my friend's magazine that day while waiting for the bus to get back to the mall.

I haven't been swimming once in my pool yet. Not once. Now I am stuck between when am I ever going to swim this year in the pool and why not just wait until next year, when I know my moods will have simmered down some? So yea. That's the dilemma right now. I'm hoping that I might get in some swimming before they close if my non blood related sister comes over. That would be great. I just recently talked to her and gave her my new address. So now she knows where I live again.

Since the last time I wrote, I accumulated gold and spent some gold. I found some awesome items in the marketplace at a reasonable price, so I just couldn't resist myself. I bought some kimonos for my avatar(she was long overdue for some new dresses), and some twitching cat ears. I think I might have bought some other stuff, but that was more than 5 minutes ago. Right now, I am at 552,253,184mill gold! I'm still doing great! I'm looking forward to when I finally reach 1bill or more gold again! That will be wonderful! I just need to keep up doing what I have been doing(including selling stuff in the marketplace), and I will be there in no time at all! After I post this, I will be at 552,253,244mill gold!

I better get going and post this. I want to do some other stuff on here(like read the news perhaps or welcome new members to Gaia).