Do you ever set yourself up for dissapointment? Do you ever say "Okay, this will happen on this day," even though you know full well that you have no idea what will happen when?
I told myself "I'm going to get Zach's first letter from the recovery platoon on Monday." After a few days I started believing it. Yesterday I was so excited, only one day! Today, I could physically hear my heart pounding as my mom checked the mail. And-no letter. Well, duh, you'd say, of course no letter. Let the man recover from pnumonia already! Geesh! Yeah, I know all that. But still, it hurts so much. We're not together, and so the only thing I cling to is the brief time when I read a letter for the first time that it feels like he's really there, really talking to me. And the lack of communication, as Zachy has so blatently pointed out, hurts more than anything.
 Elainya · Tue Dec 07, 2004 @ 01:11am · 0 Comments |
