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Yeah, thanks for reading my journal, people. Thanks for caring, thanks for being there. Thanks for helping, and thanks for just.. being people.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing here, because I really don't like whining to my journal entry.
I just really had to have somewhere to put this. Because... my word eats documents. So I don't want to put it there. And it's too big to print screen.
You don't have to read it. Kudos to you if you do, because you might actually understand something of how my mind works. But no, you don't have to. You never even have to read my journal, y'know?

- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:

i'm sorry
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
for whatever i did
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
I know
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
I just...
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
have -problems-
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
xP
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
you do know you can tell me anything
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
i'm one of the few people who understands
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
whatever it is
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
you can tell me
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
I know
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
is it to do with school?
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
homework?
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
it's just... everything
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
all at once
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
even -I- don't get it
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
and I wouldn't feel right telling people
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
but it's just.. so stupid
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
when I think about it
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
but then... I just get...
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
dead
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
well
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
i won't think it's stupid
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
whatever 'it' is
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
but that's the problem
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
even -I- don't know what 'it' is
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
it's just.. people
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
and me getting annoyed with EVERYONE
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
you included
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
ALL the time
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
and homework
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
and unfair-ness
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
and just...
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
mostly people
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
okay
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
umm
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
write a list
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
of everything that annoys you
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
during the day
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
like, everything
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and then look at it later
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and decide whether you need to be more rational about the situation, or if it's just annoying
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
then you can try to change it
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
whatever you did wrong or whatever someone else did wrong
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
you just have to have.. patience
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and be tolerant
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and organized about homework, too
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
.... why am I crying?
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
ah well
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
thankyou
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
so much
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
did i make you cry o.o
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
yes
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
because you -care-
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
and like... no one else does
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
okay. this sounds really stupid
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
but.. everyone cares
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
in one way or another
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and they just have strange ways of showing it sometimes
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
but.. they do care
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
i suppose some people just
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
show it more?
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
i don't know.. i don't know how anyone else's mind works
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
sometimes you just have to give up
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and say something's too complicated
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and completely ignore it
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
until it goes away
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
but ignoring things doesn't make them go away
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
you need to remember.. tough times never last
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
and everything you go through
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
makes you stronger
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
in one way or another
- sQu // *__ ii w0nt seNd r0ses;; buT r0ses suiT y0u so... `x says:
=)
Dяag0и ((Ugh....)) says:
=)

So, yeah.
That *points up* has to be the best thing anyone's ever said to me in a long time. Thank you Cat, so much.

Secondly, I owe you all an apologly. I know no one reads this, but for all the people who do ((pretty much just Shells and Cat xD)) I owe you an apology.

Shells - I'm sorry for not being online at all, and when I am, lurking. I've been so busy with one thing or another, and emotional breakdowns always drain heaps of time away. So yeah... sorry.

Cat - There's not really much to say here. I'm sorry I'm a b***h.

Katri and Zep - I know I shouldn't post this here, because you never read it anyway, but I will just in case.
I'm sorry for constantly being jealous, and having to be included, and being an attention seeker. I'm sorry I don't trust you, and I'm sorry I get all mad and pissy at the smallest things. I'm sorry for destroying our friendship. I'm sorry for being a problem. I'm sorry that I'm drifting apart from you, and I'm sorry for... Well... I'm just sorry, ok?