It seems that I am one of the people who can pick up on subtle motions/actions/words/phrases fairly easily. I usually try to ignore most of the things I notice because I prefer not to think about what they'll mean or cause later (both of which, I already deduce as well). This, 90 percent of the time, only leads to me wishing I hadn't known or that they would have turned into something else.
Call it premonition, call it ESP, call it whatever the hell you like, but I don't normally enjoy it. It's almost like being pulled back from the world to witness it all like the aerial view of a parade, seeing where the roads will lead and being unable to do anything, whether they head one way or over a cliff.
Whenever I even try, just a little, to push it in another direction, I end up advancing the inevitable outcome or shredding it into a possibly more horrible one. At best, I've only been able to suggest, to input. If I prod too harshly, the fire spits its embers in my face x.x
There are rare times where I'm glad to see something through, because the outcome is something I'd love to see for once. Again, those are very rare and, even if I know it might bother me a little, I don't want to ruin it.
Oddly enough, we were mentioning something close to this in Mythology, but I couldn't say for certain because the poem we read was stuck in my mind and making me formulate one of my own. The poem I concockted is still in my head and strongly connected to what I'm talking about. I figure that I might as well write it down because I think it's the first poem to really work for me in years (I haven't dabbled much in poems because I am never satisfied with them).
Look!
Look at them!
Do you see what they're doing?
You say they're talking
But don't you see what's happening?
You see a group of friends
Laughing and chatting with myrth.
Look!
See this one?
Behind her light-hearted words
She accuses!
See that?
That one saw it.
She knows
But forgives
By laughing and adding jokes of her own!
Those too!
Their eyes are lieing.
Niether will admit
That they would rather run
Than take a bullet for the others.
They will be leaving soon...
You see two people?
Look at the space between them.
So wide is the gap,
But why?
They speak
But their words mean nothing.
She is the one expanding the gap.
He tries to cross it.
She does not enjoy his presence
Behind their small conversation.
He does not see
That she will never say
'Yes'.
Can you see it now?
Look!
Look at me
With your blank face
While you look at mine.
Your relaxed composure exposes
Everything.
In it,
I see your fears,
I see your hopes,
I see your broken
And whole
Dreams.
Can you see mine?
Look at them!
Do you see what they're doing?
You say they're talking
But don't you see what's happening?
You see a group of friends
Laughing and chatting with myrth.
Look!
See this one?
Behind her light-hearted words
She accuses!
See that?
That one saw it.
She knows
But forgives
By laughing and adding jokes of her own!
Those too!
Their eyes are lieing.
Niether will admit
That they would rather run
Than take a bullet for the others.
They will be leaving soon...
You see two people?
Look at the space between them.
So wide is the gap,
But why?
They speak
But their words mean nothing.
She is the one expanding the gap.
He tries to cross it.
She does not enjoy his presence
Behind their small conversation.
He does not see
That she will never say
'Yes'.
Can you see it now?
Look!
Look at me
With your blank face
While you look at mine.
Your relaxed composure exposes
Everything.
In it,
I see your fears,
I see your hopes,
I see your broken
And whole
Dreams.
Can you see mine?
I should probably think of a title, although, I wish I could add more to it. The only problem is that I cannot seem to find better words to help formulate a better picture.
So yeah, I doubt to get any replys, considering that the people who usually do this have, more or less, faded from Gaia for a little while. I can see that as a good thing. Or not. Either way, I have said what I wanted and don't expect those who know me to understand it, or at least, understand it's multiple hidden meanings. Yes, I actually have hidden meanings in nearly all of my entires. I would say 95% average.
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