Dying from passion or logic isn't as cut and dry as it may seem. Yes, if I am too head over heels in love or overwhelmed with emotion, it can lead to death. The same is true though for ice but in a different way. If I cut myself off too much, I isolate myself to the point that there is no meaning in life or purpose. If I have only logical relationships, those without sparks, it can lead to self-sacrifice and hatred. Hatred is also possible by ice. When people warn me about Sakura, I feel sad because they forget that Chisai is also dangerous. If she felt that there was nothing for me, she would end it in an instant. There's no safety in either of them. Chisai merely blends in better with the society of today than Sakura.
I've tried to make another persona to help me balance the two but she never came fully into being. She had a vague outline but never found her voice. It's quite sad. I don't know if it would be possible to make any more. Since I already have mind, body, and soul.... I don't know what else is left to balance out. It's just that my soul is lost in a dreamworld right now. Maybe if I wrote her book, she would come back to me and I would be in control? I don't know.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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