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The Mind of a Fox
This will be the place I can record all of my thoughts, poems, nonsensical drivel, and what have you.
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Things are different now. We can't be the way we were so long ago. It's hard to believe that we finally found our way back to one another. But we're different people now, living different lives, with obligations. We can never be as carefree and open as our past selves. Do you realize how frustrating that is? You're screaming and banging on the walls of your mind to be free, but on the surface, you're holding back, you're stoic and reserved.

I'm sure you do. Because I know you. Deep down, you're still the same happy-go-lucky, energetic cat that I once spent all my time communicating with. I'm still here, too. I'm that same carefree, optimistic, stubborn fox. But you won't see her. Not like you used to. We're prohibited from being ourselves. Sometimes when I'm feeling rebellious, sometimes when I'm feeling alone, I want to come to you, and just be my playful self. But I know neither party would benefit from that.

We're in a gridlock, a checkmate. There's nothing neither you nor I can do about it. Just go on as we are, you constantly arguing because you're lending me your precious thoughts and time. And me, feeling guilty because I feel like sometimes I can say more to you than I can my own other half.

Is it time to just give up? Walk away. Pretend we never found one another. Instead you veered left before our paths crossed. Or possibly I took a bridge when you ventured through the tunnel. Is it time to let go? Would it be for the best in the long run?

I don't want to. I lost you once. Eventually the hurt and feeling of emptiness subsided. Now that you're back...I just don't want to experience those feelings again.






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Raspberry Regicide
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commentCommented on: Thu Apr 17, 2014 @ 07:56am
....You should delete this post.


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