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Smiley's thoughts.
I know most people wouldn't be interested in reading this, so I'm just going to jot down a few of my thoughts here.
Nothing Special
So... It may be nothing special in all honesty, but in truth it calms me. I write. Often. I don't mean just short journal entries or simple poems or what not... Currently I am working on two things. My second book in the awoken series (Don't ask, something I was working on last year), and a new story that doesn't have a title. It's kind of based off of a roleplay I am doing, but very loosely. In truth, I only keep my characters and such. But... I am stuck right now. Enough so that my brain is hurting... gonk

Truth be told, I never felt like I was that good at writing, but ever since I came out of a horrible depression, (Teenage hormones, finding out new facts about dad's death, multipul cross-country moves, ect.) I have dug myself into a new story or roleplays every once in a while. I try to make my characters life like, add some drama, maybe a little romance... but it all ends up dead in the end. Like someone brought in a shotgun and took a little creative liberty with my brain.

My little brother is engrossed in Awoken right now O.o (all 650 pages of it) and is begging for the second one. And my sisters are wanting to read my other one. Why won't my brain wooooork?

Well... 3:40 am. Maybe I should sleep...






User Comments: [16]
The Nephilim Rosier
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Thu Aug 29, 2013 @ 01:15pm


If writing calms you sugar, keep on going! It IS special, to be able to create things like that. Being able to create something is a beautiful talent, you never forget that gurl! If you can write six hundred and fifty pages of your own imagination, it is wonderful and amazing! And if your sisters are BEGGING for the second one, I'm sure it isn't as bad as you think ^^ They may be your sisters, but that's exactly how you know they're telling the truth. Only family will tell you if something you create is crap, and if they like it? Well then it's pretty damn good! And if you ever feel confident enough to send it to a stranger, I'd love to be able to read it Jaxi <3 I adore reading, and I have a two week break coming up wink


MamaNyxx
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Thu Aug 29, 2013 @ 09:40pm


Awww crying I am so happy that you would thinkg so, and would want to read my stories as well. Awoken has... been captured by my siblings, jumpdrive and all, So if I sent something it would have to be my newest...? Other than that, I could attempt to send you some on Awoken.


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 03:17am


Ah, I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner! I swear it's not that I don't love you D: I just went out of town for a bit to visit a friend, and although I thought I'd have wifi there I clearly didn't ><
Hahaha your siblings abducted your story? Now that's definite proof it's awesome biggrin I'd love whichever you'd be able to send, I just love getting lost in other people's imagination ^^
How have you been these past few days Jaxi~?


MamaNyxx
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 03:26am


Oh it's no problem whee I understand that.

I'll send the beginning to my other one lol. I love getting lost too. Bit of a bookworm here. And... As for how I've been... Swamped by roleplays and chizz. Anything to zone out from reality. My mom stepped back into our lives if only to wreak more havoc, stare

How was your out of town trip?


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 03:41am


YAY STORY biggrin Haha highfive~ I'm addicted to books too haha, probably 'cause my mom was a librarian when I was younger and when both her and my dad were working, me and my brother would go with her and just chill in the library.
Oooh, what kind of roleplays~? And how many o-o
Oh crap, really? >< ******** hope things get better sugar <3
It was fun! I got to see my bestie, who's on like the other end of the country, so it was definitely loads of fun! A nice break from overprotective parents who won't let me do much in terms of going out ><


MamaNyxx
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 03:46am


Um... Let's see here... Three or four roleplays, each with me playing AT LEAST two characters, sometimes three lol. gonk I can show them to you if you'd like?

And it's ok, at least nobody died :/ Other than the hamster crying

Oh! I'm happy to hear that! whee And be glad your parents are overprotective, it means they care. At lest enough to worry for you or even lay down rules. (Kinda missing her overprotective parents)

I read your journal on bullying, just to let you know.


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 03:52am


Wooooaaahhhh, how do you manage it all? I only started RPing not too long ago, and the first one I was in died D: Second one also died, but it was remade and that's what I'm in now, and I can't believe I didn't discover RPing earlier, it's so fun! I'd love to see them if you don't mind!
NOT THE HAMSTER-CHAN gonk crying
Haha yeah, I know, though it does get a tad annoying at times. I do *try* to not be too bothered by it though, because it's not like the don't care...Awww...I'LL BE YOUR OVERPROTECTIVE ADOPTIVE MOMMA, DON'T WORRY! heart heart
Ah, really? redface I never expected anyone to...


MamaNyxx
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 04:08am


Okay ^ ^ Newbrook academy
The School
Things are not as they appear
Trentervon Academy This one is almost dead DXX (Not if I can help it)

Yeah I'm going through a weird roleplaying topic phase. XD.

And I love to roleplay, I found out about it when I was like ten on neopets, then ju9st never stopped. At least permanently lol. And I do it because if you're writing a book, you have to keep track of more than one character? Right? Plus, it's just fun. Also it's easier because I reuse some characters.

And yes... Mr. Tinkles passed away last night. There was a beautiful service with me being the grave digger. crying It was sad. But the girls are each getting a new hamster out of it.

And yay! New mama! emotion_hug

I read your journal because I visited your page, and noticed it. It was well written, and made me get... *dundundun* the feels.


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 04:16am


So mannyyyy! *opens all*
Ahh neopets...When I was younger I just used to take care of my pets, plus I couldn't get onto the forums, being under 13 and all... I was an honest little kid who used my real age xD
Ah yeah, that makes sense, though the one thing I like about rps more is that you don't control everyone and things can change from your original plan =O Hahaha nice, but doesn't that get confusing? Like, if you have two Smiley Paws (it's the only name I can think of shush xP) with the same backstory and pic and everything, but in different RPs, wouldn't you get the what's happening muddled?
Oh no, poor Mr Tinkles..I hope he lived a happy life....
How hard are hamsters to care for? I really want a pet but my parents won't let me, though if it's something small like a hamster I could try xP
emotion_hug
Now, don't go out too late, no standing within 5 meters of boys, and be home by 8pm ;3
Oh my, I have a stalker =O Haha but yeah, I was just feeling like s**t one day and had to get it out >< I feel like s**t a lot tbh....I specialise in making myself hate myself, yipee[/sarcasm]


MamaNyxx
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 04:31am


Oh neopets... The place where I gained my first creeper... *Sighs in rememberance* I cheated and said I was like eighteen. I'm such a rebel xd

As for the characters, honestly, no. Lol, strangely enough I can keep track form roleplay to roleplay with ease. As long as I don't make them a one eighty from the other version, I can play each of them well enough. Besides, gotta love a semi-photographic memory rolleyes

You should join one lol. Newbrook is mind, but all of them are accepting more characters. I can fill you in on what's happened if you wish, 3nodding

As for Mr. Tinkles... He lived a simple life. One of food, water, and loving girls. So I guess he was happy ^ ^ And hamsters are VERY easy to take care of, just change their bedding, food, and water when it is needed, and you're home free! They clean themselves, exercise on wheels, and love you for as long as they live. Although if you get more than one, you have to buy them at the same time or else they never stop fighting gonk

No feeling like s**t! No hating yourself! Bad mama bad!

Honestly, I feel the same too. The way I pull myself out of it is reminding myself it is in my power for others to make me feel bad. They can call me everything under the sun, bbut in the end I have to look in the mirror and believe it. Too bad I usually do... O.o And if you ever need to talk, remember, your stalker is here to chat whee


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 04:56am


*shakes head* Oh naughty daughter, never lie about your age unless it's to make yourself younger xD My first experience joining an online community was Maple Story (I lied on my age for that xD), and then, I can't remember how, but I found Gaia and never left ^^
Ahh nice nice! I just make them all completely different 'cause I love having new pics and backstories ^^ Ooooh luckkkkyyyyy, my memory is absolutely s**t ><
Haha, funnily enough, I was just reading through Newbrook, trying to decide who I want as my roommate. Already decided on my pic and main power, I'm gonna make one of those special humans whose an illusionist ^^ I am sooo obsessed with magicians atm, just watched Now You See Me last night, and I really want to visit NY to see the magicians there, particularly Dan Sperry. Saw him live earlier this year with a few other magicians, AMAZING!
Aww that's good for Mr Tinkles <3 I hope he's able to rest in peace heart
I WANT ONE I WANT ONE I WANT ONE! I blame Hamtaro xD Sooo gonna try pursuading my parents~
Yes dear, mama is very bad sad Don't learn from her D:
Don't you dare believe them sweetie, you are nothing they say. You are strong and beautiful, and before you say that pic on your profile is very hard to see you in properly, I've seen your personality. And it's stunning <3
For me, after all that's happened I've just stopped believing others. It's myself that I believe. I hate myself for things that others don't even know about. I hate myself for small things I do or don't do. I hate myself for my personality... Just...yeah. Best way for me to forget is to listen to music really loud or read. Hence I need to listen to music to get to sleep, otherwise my brain thinks ><
Yes Ms Stalker! I'm glad <3 Talking to you in general makes me happy =]


MamaNyxx
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 05:22am


I haven't played maplestory in years! Wow... that was a fun one lol. And people still think I'm like twelve where I'm at... O.o lovely. I had someone stop me the other day and wonder how I bought my dad cigarettes. Threatened to call the cops! XDD

And lucky? Ha, if you say so sweatdrop It doesn't come in handy when I get embarrassed, and can bring up the thought with clarity as if it had happened yesterday redface

Hamtaro... Oh that's why we got the hamster in the first place lol. The girls just didn't want to make him sound japanese. At least... that's what morgan told me.

And if talking to me makes you happy, then we shall chatter together like old biddies when you feel upset! Deal?

By the way... where have you been all my life? It's like we got separated at birth O.o lol just teasing you. You actually are really cool though.


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 05:32am


Ah yeah, it was nice =] Met loads of awesome people, but sadly drama fked it all up. Didn't touch it for about a year or two after that, and then slowly went back for the friends who still played. I still go on occasionally now just to chat with friends ^^ One of my friends actually introduced me to a girl who lives in the same city as me last year, and this year we've met up a few times and she's so awesome ^^
Ahahaha nooo, really? xD Haha me and one of my friends asked a shopkeeper who looked older once, her being a year older than me. Apparently I look older =O
Oh my, that must really suck >< At least you'll never forget what not to do though ^^
Haha I wanted a hamster when I was younger, swearing to get one that looked exactly like Hamtaro xD He would have been treated like a prince~
Pssh, we shall chatter together whenever and always, screw waiting for sadness!
Haha aww thank you redface You're rather awesome yourself! I wish we met earlier, and then we could have just been awesome together for longer biggrin


The Nephilim Rosier
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Wed Sep 04, 2013 @ 06:48am


Oh, also, may my character be Ailis' roommate?


The Nephilim Rosier
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Sat Sep 07, 2013 @ 11:44am


Hey gorgeous Ms Jaxi, how are you today?


MamaNyxx
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Sat Sep 07, 2013 @ 03:09pm


Oh, my friend yes she may. Lol I am sorry I didn't reply. I never got any notification O.o

As for how I'm doing... Well not good at all. I will be putting a new journal up though lol, so you can read about it there if you wish, unless you want me to explain it now.


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