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Johnny and I got into a fight last night and it carried into this morning. This really sucks sad Usually the next day we both say "sorry" and move on like nothing happened. But not this time. He can't get over my past, and I apparently can't get over my past either.
The other day when we were hanging out he took my phone because he wanted to see which messages I save that he sends me. Yes, I save messages, I'm sentimental like that. Also, when we are arguing it's nice to have them to look at so I remember how he really feels before he's overwhelmed with insecurities.
I fought him to get my phone back because I was embarrassed. What if he had laughed at me because of the messages I saved? Every guy I've ever dated told me I was childish and stupid for saving messages, or being sentimental period. So instinctively I didn't want him to see what I had. No, I didn't have any messages from any other guys; I don't talk to any other guys. Yeah, I had some pics that I sent him that I haven't deleted, but there were also pics on there that I decided not to send him because they sucked, and I didn't want him to see those, either. I don't know. Either way, he said he's not sure if he can trust me now.
I offered to let him read the texts after we talked it out, but that seemed to just piss him off more. He wants me to be completely comfortable with him since he's been my best friend for years, so he doesn't see why I freaked out.
Anyways, this is just my small rant for this morning. Not much else to say.