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Day: I lost count

You would have been 13, you know. This year, or so Mom says... I can't believe it's already been 4 years. She's turning 16, Lizzy is. Seems like just yesterday she was turning 14, and i was hugging and kissing her. Of course, a lot of things seem like just yesterday. The day they pulled me out of school to go visit you on your death bed, your funeral, the day i went out there and sat by your cross for an hour. Tonight, i feel numb inside. Cade is here, you probably wouldn't remember him if you were still alive. He's our half-brother. He's going to be moving down here soon. I'm glad. Idk what I'm going to do about Virginia. The damn girl can't stay away from me for a couple of weeks or she breaks down. Just once I'd like to ignore my phone and not have 20 text messages, and 19 from her. I thought it was cute at first... She's so ******** childish. She isn't mature enough to formulate an opinion of her own, and she still (STILL!) will not eat a single vegetable. Oh, and ketchup on everything *sigh and facepalm* Like i said, I don't know what I'm going to do with her. Probably break up with her, but then she's going to kill herself, and i just don't need another death around me. Love is a cruel thing... Next time you see cupid, tell the cruel b*****d to shoot her with another one of those love arrows, maybe she'll get off my case. Hell, make bryce happy and make her fall in love with him. And for god's sake, either make me fall in love with somebody else, or make lizzy fall in love with me. Jesus Christ, this hurts. I learned a few new songs today. Take It Easy by the Eagles, Hate Me by Blue October, .45 by Shinedown, Heaven by Warrant, and I finished learning the rest of Every Rose Has Its Thorn by Poison. I'm getting quicker, and better at barre chords. I'm going to learn Lullaby by Creed tomorrow, and probably Monster You Made by Pop Evil, after i (rustily) play all those previously said songs. Cade put in 2 new speakers behind my truck and my new stereo in the truck today. I spent the whole drive home blasting A7X. Well, I'm going to knock back a couple swigs of nyquil *involuntary shudder* and go to sleep. Fun day. Just another one tomorrow too