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I have this feeling, that I'll never be complete without him.
He made me who I am today, & I know I can't let that go. not this easily.
Not to mention my boyfriend & I aren't the same anymore..
I just feel like I could him my everything. I gave up so long ago.
But then he steps back into my world, & I just regain all of the things
I've missed out on. He makes me smile.. but recently I've made him frown.
I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you... I wish I could show you how
I'm changing. But until I can show you, I'll hold on to those memories,
and keep on truckin' . I know one day our paths will cross again,
& I'll finally be able to prove to you, that you're my penguin . (:
I love you..
Amazed-Lonestar

I'm thinking about you again.
I was on youtube, your song "God damn your beautiful"
came on... I miss talking to you.. I wish you hadn't had left...
It still hurts... I really hope you & I start talking soon... :l
I really do love you.. please realize that soon...
Don't make me wait...

Our song came on. I miss you...I try to
spend all of my time doing something, trying
to get you off of my mind, but that never lasts long..
I miss you .. please come back....

I'm listening to our song again.. I really miss you..
I hope you miss me too.. You're my everything..
Whether you know it or not.. you are... : l
Please.. talk to me again...
our song doens't even sum up how I feel about you...
I'm truley amazed , but not just by the love you have for me..
but how you put up with me. Time and time again.
I understand why you had to leave... I know it was a big
stress to have on your shoulders. I don't blame you
for walking away... I would have to...
Just please come back... I really freaking miss you...

So I talked to you last night. You told me you missed me too. <3
I almost cried when I read that.
I'll be waiting, don't you worry . I'm not going to give up.
not now.. not ever <3

So, I'm starting to not think about you so much.
I guess that's not a bad thing...
I just really hope it helps...

I had a dream about you last night.
I wish it was real... :c
I think about you a lot... but
I'm starting to do other things..
Hopefully I can keep you off my mind longer..

So I havn't thought about you all day. I guess that
means something right? I hope so..
I just really wish you & I started talking more..
I miss you.... so much ._. ...

So we're in Vh, and you're just being so distant..
I miss us.. so much..
I wish i had the balls to tell you...
but as you obviously know, I dont...
I just wish you'd stop being so mean to me..
you don't know it .. because I don't show it...
but it hurts.. or if I do.. you think im just being "emo"...
I wish you knew how i felt...

So, I've been up all night.
I guess I like staying up with people more now.
Keeps you off my mind longer.
I miss you, but I know it's for the best.
I love you...

Ugh, journal. Help me..
I'm stuck... I'm in love with Ron,
but I think I might care about Spencer too...
I don't know what to do... :l
Tell me what to dooooooo !! D:

Well journal, I'm done with Ron.
His friend Henry decides to hack me, and I'm just done.
Plus, whenever hes around his friends now adays,
he treats me like s**t too... I guess he just can't let them know
how he feels about me? But It's alright,
everyday I'm getting stronger and getting over him..
I get a little bit stronger..

Well , I've come to know,
I'll never get 'over' Ron. I'll always love him no matter what.
& Spencer will always be in my heart.
I miss ron, I admit it.
I miss me actually being happy, and seeing him happy.
Just seeing him in general makes me happy..
But I know he can't talk to me, due to his friends,
& the 'feelings' he says....
It's whatever, I know love has no limits... so I'll bare through.