I wish I could say I don't believe in true happiness, but I do. I just don't think that I will ever experience it. I mean, I was happy once but that seems like ages ago. I miss what my life used to be like. And if you you're reading this and you're wondering what my life used to be like, then you should probably read through the other journals. The relationship I was in was going great until I ruined it. But I can't change that now. The friends I used to consider faithful and trustworthy showed me how wrong I really was. Or maybe they were never faithful and trustworthy in the first place. Maybe I just wanted to see them that way. So here I am, with practically nothing left, trying to hold on to my pathetic life hoping I'll find something to make me smile. And I'm not talking about those lame smiles people make just so others aren't worried. I'm talking about a serious, legit, happy smile. And I can't wait to be able to smile like that again...
Sincerely,
Kat =^.^=
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