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In the master mind of carol95 I'll use this journal for thing that I want to ... A) Plan down, like a new role play or something that I want to test out. Or B) Write what on my mind, or asking questions.


carol95
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My thoughts and feelings
Hey, whom maybe reading this. My is Carollynn, I'm a young, hyper, sixteen year old girl! But today I'm not feel that way, recently I've talk to my friend, Zach (he gay) but a long time ago he was once my boyfriend. When people ask if he gay he be like "yeah" but then he continued to say "But my my bessst buddy in the world once dated!" Then I cracked this one joke and I think it really funny. "Ever since then he was gay, maybe I was the one who turn him gay!" Even though he wasn't and after we broke up he still kind of stalk me! But I'm getting away from the story sweatdrop so today he talk to me after he got back from his trip to Texas, he sounded really happy, actually a little to happy. I just ask why he told me that Damion was come back this year, I laugh and hang up. I was looking forward to this school year but it hasn't even started and I'm have mixed emotions. sad, frustrated, heartbroken and OUTRAGED! Why, you must ask. Well it a little story from eight grade, I was all way picked on, no one like me and all the girl would tell me that I'm "stupid, ugly, and a crybaby!" I have gone through this crap since kindergarten. But anyway I had my eyes set one this one boy who seem to talk to me, and laugh with me that was Damion, I had a crush on him ever since the sixth grade and never told anyone about it. So my friends were asking silly question like who did they liked and so on. I never play that game with them, it would get a ...little to personal. But they ask me that one question very girl ask other girl. "who do you like Carollynn" I was at the moment madly in love with him that I need to let my feeling flow, so I told them, they smiled looking at each other and began forced me to talk to him, but I was far to shy. I was unsure he was give me sign like I don't know, looking at me from a far and give me written note saying hi and what not. Until one day in Science class he passed me a note said "Hey my girlfriend just broke up with me, I have feeling for you so maybe you would like to be...." I had two choices, one was "friends" and the other "girlfriend" I wish I have gone back in time and circled friend but instead I circled the other. (take note it was a friday) He made me feel like I was important, love, a person. So on that day was a prep rally and I was on the volleyball team, so when I got out there I was preppy! I told my friend I had finally got him, but no I was stupid! Over the weekend was the best weekend of my life but when I got back, I was in for something different, so when I gotten there and sat down and eaten breakfast I sat next to him and I was so happy but he was acting strange. Before the bell rang he gotten up and walked away, wait why?! Why? My best friend ran after him and ask was the matter. She came back with a sad look on her face. "He dumping you. He told me that he was on drugs when he asked me out" I broke down on the inside but on the outside I try to stay strong I walk away smiling and laugh but soon started to cry in my first hour class all the girl began to laugh and giggle at my red cheek and watery eyes. The teacher called my mother and my mother came and picked me up from school at home I just sat in my dark room crying and crying. But everything changed for me, I grew mad and madder. Fulled with hate for him. Soon after some day he ends up dating my best friend then moves away for some odd reason. I was but better and happier without he stupid a** around. Until then I was in good moods, until freshman year I was talking and my buddy Zach brought up Damion, that he dated him at the same time I was. I told him about it but Zach didn't care. Soon I heard other story from girl that they date him at the same time as me. Once again my hate raged for him. But it cool down quickly but now, if I see him, I'm going to knock him the ******** out! That what I'm going to do.




 
 
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