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Why do people put up with me ? I can't do a damn thing right. Not even simple tasks like make dinner.

Even though my sister passed away not too long ago, (April 7th, if you must know) I am beginning to think that maybe it wasn't her that was the burden in the family. I honestly think it's me where I can't do anything right.

I know my parents just lost one kid, but frankly, I'm starting to wish it had been me who'd died, instead of her. Then I wouldn't be a bother to anyone. Plus then, my family would be happy cause they don't have to put up with stupid me.

I honestly wonder what purpose my life has besides being the annoying, stupid, can't-do-a-damn-thing-right, burden I am.