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Lol well that an unproductive shower. Well in a shower sense it was XD but in the whole writting sense, terrible. Got bout nothing wrote and ended up erasing it.
Anyways....made rp profiles for my main characters. I think the main antagonist should be at least a sub character not a side note >.> oh well. ******** him XD
I'm still working over the names....not sure if I like Titanya and T'rcent. Sure i like Tyr and Anya. But well. Those aren't supposed to be names XP
Lol at least i got the pics down biggrin first time i've picked a pic and name before doing the profile o.O
Went surprisingly well.
Keep getting distracted by this t.v. show sweatdrop
Yeah i got nothing now. Maybe i'll remember it tomorrow.
Or now. Cuz stars forbid i not play along.....
Anyways! So. Today, er technically last night, was a first. Well last night i knew about it. Was actually nearly two weeks ago. Eh. Yeah well ok so like i said nearly two weeks ago i had a dream. Lol. Anyways well it only lasted a whole 6 seconds. Ok. Well....maybe 10. I can't tell you what it was about cuz to do so i'd have to then go back and explain every damned nightmare i've had in the past two years. Given i mean nightmares on my scale, so it's only 16, but well. Ok so i really, really, really don't want to go through those. Hell i'm not going to go through this one. Made me jumpy all day.
What was my point?
Oh yes! Well in the dream, end of the dream i was at these stairs (in 2ft of bloody snow! So random >.> ) and theres a cement wall on one side and i stop to look over it as i saw something move in my periphial vision. Now i have no idea how to explain what i saw. Especially not in a way that's terrifying. Lol. Anyways, it was like a guy, clad in black and it looked like he had a gasmask on and his eyes were all glowing yellow. And he was just standing there on the hill staring at me. I freaked so bad i woke up that instant. Damn i hate people. Especially creepy ones. Especially creepy people clad in gasmaks that could be zombies o.O
Well it turned out it was a kinda premonition of last nights dream. Which is the long one i'm not talking about that kept me asleep until 8am and left me totally exaughsted. So i crashed until 2pm.
The thought of that damned thing staring at me still gives me the shivers. Don't know if knowing it was coming made it less scary or not....don't know. I was already in hysterics, coming to those stairs just broke what tolerance i had so i fell against the wall crying and screaming. Lol wonder what i did to piss my mind off that it would put me through the worst moments of my dreams, through my worst fears all in one dream.
No wonder i don't wanna sleep. Try and pull that s**t on me again i'm buying more tea and caffinated marshmellows. Cannot have that madness every night. The usual ******** with my mind, sure i can handle that everynight and day. But that dream was so much worse than any of dreams. Last time i felt that level of fear, i was 3 and 7. Lol even seeing that comic logan shared on tinychat last halloween didn't scare me half as much.
Heh. I feel like such a child. Not wanting to go to sleep 'cuz i'm afraid there's a monster in my closet and wanting to crawl in bed with my brother.
But I can't.
It's childish and unreasonable. And i have to take shea to school in the morning. So i have to go to sleep. I'll just check my rp's one more time first.....
Maybe listening to those soundtracks will calm me enough to be able to look at a window. Lol hell no. Won't do that anyways. I'm especially prone to scary a** hallucinations at night. This is why i avoid horror. I got enough s**t in my head as it is, don't to give it ideas....
 BSPBleach · Thu Mar 22, 2012 @ 08:07am · 0 Comments |
