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I have to either be the unluckiest person in the world, or Life is determined to keep me from ever getting super happy.

Why do I say that ?

Well, it's simple. I got excited about the fact that my boyfriend was going to fly to Arizona to visit me (This weekend in fact. He was going to come out on the 9th.) and as usual, Life had to ******** up his plans of visiting. So in a nutshell: I get excited about something (A trip to somewhere, my boyfriend visiting, ect.) and something always happens to where whatever it was that was going to happen, doesn't. It's actually to a point, where I honestly don't really ever get excited about anything anymore because it seems that if I don't get excited about something, it happens. And I am soo tired of stuff happening like this, because it makes it hard to actually get excited and enjoy something that does happen. Perhaps I should give up on ever being truly happy and quit looking forward to stuff.

It honestly makes me question if certain things will ever happen in my life, or if I am destined to die alone, and have a funeral like that of Ebenezer Scrooge from A Christmas Carol (pick whatever movie version you want to go by. The point is, Scrooge didn't have anyone at his funeral, and I'm beginning to think that's how my funeral will be, even though I'm not a greedy self-centered person like Scrooge.)

Needless to say, Life sucks and I wish it'd leave me alone for a little while and let me have a little happiness while I'm alive.