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Phew. Wow..
Let's see..

I'll be honest right off the bat, journal.
I've never felt this awful before.
And Chiznit's helped me realize exactly why.
I've been depressed. Crying myself to sleep.
And you know what it is?
It's not GAIA. It's my friends!
Well.. not all of them.
I get along with most, and I'm going out on a limb here hoping I don't offend anyone. o;
So let's keep names out of it, eh?

I've realized with some help that..
It's the depressed friends that get me depressed.
Like.. I've told pretty much all of my friends that if they have issues that they should come to me because I WANT TO HELP.
But like.. I do have a breaking point. And recently, that line has been crossed.
I think since I KNOW why I've been feeling so shitty recently, I'll be able to deal with it a little better. I hope.
So yeah. I apologize if I hurt anyone recently..

And uhm.. Ethan?
I know you're like.. not doin' too hot right now..
But.. if you ever want a back rub, I'm your girl. Yeah?
Maybe not. Haha~ ; P
Just don't be so down, hm? ^^
^ I'll take my own advice there too. c:

Take care all.

Quoth the Raven according to my emotions.
That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end. The fog is like a cage without a key.
~Elizabeth Wurtzel