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Hello people guess what? Eh, you know like one of those slow as days kind of guess. Well these few weeks been turning out great-ish even I feel like thing are moving very slowly but for a short moment I feel like everything just rush and speed up. Well... thats how I feel these last few weeks nor days. Do you know that feeling when rain hits you in a dream? Well that how I feel sometimes but these cold showers kind of makes the best of things even with this heat. Yet, I still can't get some sleep. . so it seem but this one day I had more then one dream within a dream and dream. I was confused because it seem real even I know it wasn't. For some reason I feel like there was a reason with all those event that happen but my question is why? Then I notice something but I feel foolish to let it bother me. You know what it was? Well if you want to know well in all my dreams I'm always running like I'm being chase by something. I think I know what it is but I shouldn't let it bother me. As I think about it I keep having those dreams like there guilt I'm feeling ? It doesn't matter anyway but keep letting my media player keep playing songs music I sometimes forget it's playing sometimes.
It's sad sometimes because music is my life. I feel like something is missing beside all things eh... doesn't matter oh hey I notice something. Today is Saturday!!. Yeah, nothing special but next week is that anime expo and in July 2nd Hatsune Miku gonna sing in the US but I find it funny that they are gonna do that. What his face was like ha ha ticket are sold out but I do not care. It never was my thing and I'm not gonna waste so much money just for a ticket and to fly over there ******** that man. I'm in too rock music to be honest not into pop even some people slap me with crap like R&B even I was listening to some old ones even the new one look like crap with special effect and auto tone.
I with to a concert today just to let you know. It was just bunch of local bands and its just bunch of kids. It was at a bar so I find that funny even I was hanging at the bar even it more for veteran with all those military stuff and pictures of people that serves. I kind of find it sad that the owner is getting mad that the person who hosting doesnt play him full. They always come in short sadly i was over hearing while drinking my sprite even the bartender gave me too much like the drink was 1.25$ right i gave him 20.00$ and he gave me 23.00$ I didnt want to say anything even I dont think he would hear me because the band was load. I barely heard him even I tip him 1.50$ I do not know why I was there mostly hanging out with friend of mine but feel stupid with all those kids.
Like one of them ask who 21 so they get alcohol and I rise my hand as we're outside sadly that where i was the whole time. They wanted me to buy them alcohol and I ask them their age and said "Jailbail? get the ******** out of here." friend of mine was like "BURN!!" but I still can't believe kids these days some of them look like whores but kay but stay there till midnight just hanging out and hearing someone driving but shouting "******** you!!" mostly cause everyone seen scene and rejects yet I find it boring to be there. Some people think I was funny with some comments I said but I know I was annoying my friend.
Oh I notice something but the bands were s**t really. I didn't like it yet I spend 5.00$ at the door just to be at the bar. I'm soo dumb. . .
Do you ever feel like its raining inside your head but slow beating music is playing ? I get that a lot for some reason but I'm scared to dream because I scared I might not wake up sometimes.
I still can't believe you guys are reading this junk. I blame myself for writing even I should be in bed for having a long day even I bet some of you would say "You? Long day!?!" Then think of something clever but fine be that way. I feel like I cut myself with something with my mouth but I notices something very important... Kids these days are stupid even this one was like "How my hair?" and the other guy was like "Looks good man wanna go to the bathroom." No joke I over heard someone said that and I'm like gay back of my head but I swear they were scene and ******** emo wholes I wanted to hold back everything I wanted to say but say "Troll your a** in real life." but this was like few hours ago god why am I still thinking about it.
Hey I notices something but do you ever had that feeling you were being watch ?
Eh... I should cut it short even I still have lots to talk about and I mean a lot but this isn't even half but I do not want to punish you with bad grammar and horrible story telling about my lame life even this guy ask me why I dropout and Im such a p***y for dropping out of collage but Im like... d**k.
~ayame