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Part 2

Why do I have to stay? Mom left this morning on the train to be with dad. She called later to say that grandma will be in a hospice. Aunt Sora said that grandma has between 1 -3 months to live. Grandma is in a coma after her fall. I feel numb inside. I don't want to lose her. Grandpa died the same way after being in a coma. What's happening to my family. I don't like being so close to death. Seeing the dead makes things worse. Why don't they move on? How do they move on? I feel so sad thinking about my grandparents. My friends try to help me, but most of them don't know what it's like to feel this way. I want to be with grandma. I always spent alot of time with my grandparents while my mom and dad worked. Now it's just me alone. I don't like being in the house alone. I don't know how some kids my age can live alone. I can't stand it. I want to explore the town more. I want to go to the parks, the river and the shops. I'm not a very daring person. Lately I've felt odd things. Evil things. What are they ? Tomorrow I'm going to the river to read and maybe a convience store for dinner. Yes there is food in the fridge but I want something sweet to eat. Maybe there is a candy store around here somewhere.

I better get some sleep . I set the alarm to the house and am in my room. I can't sleep. Our house is much bigger than the one in Tokyo. I have a larger room for my things. Going to finish some homework I have to do before school starts next week.

2:36 am
What's that noise!?!? Why am I so scared?! Now I am wide awake. I feel so terrified. I'm sleeping with my sword the rest of the night. Sounds crazy I know, but if any thing or any one trys to harm me they'll get a whopping. I looked out the window but I can't see anything on the street. Maybe its gone. But there was a ghost on the corner and he's gone. Sometimes the ghosts pop up put of nowhere. I hate that! You can't ignore them when they do that! I do my best to ignore them . I don't want to appear crazy to my friends or parents. No one needs to know I can see ghosts. I wonder why I am this way. It feels like a curse. I feel even more different than my peers. Crazy Yumi is at it again. I hate being alone . I bet there is no one else who can see ghosts. If there is I'll eat a pear. I hate pears. I'm going to the river to read my book tomorrow and going to get something sweet to eat. Mom and dad are trying to eliminate sugar from my diet. They think I'm getting fat. I'm not fat! I run and exercise.Isn't that enough? I hope I don't get another feeling like this ever again.