So i have recently made a really big discovery about myself that i have yet to share with anyone except my closest friend. I never really thought about myself and the friends i have but the more i thought the more i realized that i do not have that one person that i have been close to for years and years. my friends constently change and i have never really had that one best friend that everyone else seems to have. I don't really have one person i can run to for anything, well until now i guess.
I guess i am always waiting for the people around me to let me down. i am so use to disappointment that i have just accepted it and learned to ignore it and accept it as a normal friendship. but its not and i want that one person that i can trust with anything and not be afraid to cry my eyes out to or sit and laugh and bullshit with till the early morning. I really want to learn to trust people but i dont know how....
But i have one thing to be greatful for, and i think if i am going to improve this part of me this person will be the one to do it. I can honestly say he is my best friend. And for the first time i do not feel like i have to be ready to get put down or left behind. I really think i have found that one person i can trust with anything! i dont know i guess i just needed a way to let all this out with out getting judged. at least the internet wont talk back. lol
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