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part 10

It's been 4 days since I last wrote. I am now in Sapporo for my sister's wedding. I still am able to see and sense ghosts here. I feel safer here for some odd reason. I love Karakura but I can't handle the supernatural aspect of the town sometimes. My mother told me shortly after I arrived in Sapporo that not everyone can handle the supernatural. Why she started telling me right then I haven't a clue.She told me that she lost her older brother to a hollow while he was attempting to fight it. She said that both her parents were Quincies ( she never went into detail what a Quincy was. I wish she would have) She couldn't handle being one after losing her brother .So after high school she went to college. That's where she met my dad. Her father disapproved and disowned her. She said she wished that her father could have met us kids .(She says that I remind her of him sometimes.) She apologized to me for not being open about her past. She said she wanted to forget about her past but said after I turned 15 she knew I was able to see spirits.She had hoped that I hadn't inherited the ability's of a Quincy. She's worried that Ryo might also be able to see spirits. I said I was also.She didn't think Setsuna was able to see them. She said all she wanted was for her children to be safe and have a normal life.

I feel numb knowing where my abilitys really come from. I feel Mom knows more but I could see it was difficult for her to tell me as much as she did. I still wonder if there are others that are like me , but I will not look for them. I have my safety and my family's safety to worry about. My Mom told me it was safer for me not to be trained , she said that individuals like us have many enemys such as the shinigami. I didn't tell her about my encounters with the shinigami.I didn't want her to worry more than she already is. I don't think the shinigami know about my Quincy ancestry. It's better that they didn't because I have a feeling that if I died I would be sent to Hell.(It's odd that I feel this way. My family members are Japanese Christians. There are only a million or so of us here. I still pray at a shrine every so often though. I try to be a good person but feel I fall short. )Or maybe something worse would happen to me. Was my grandfather's death caused by a shinigami? Why do the shinigami hate Quincies? What did they do to deserve such a powerful enemy?

Ryo seemed different when I saw him at Setsuna's wedding. Has he been training to use his abilities? I fear for his safety. I don't want him to get killed .I don't know how much he knows about being this way. It could be possible that someone in Tokyo has been training him. Setsuna's wedding was lovely.Hiromitsu Sasakibe is such a nice person. I did get an odd feeling about him when we were introduced though. I'm glad Setsuna is happy and has found someone. I feel sometimes I may never find my other half. I hate feeling depressed on such a happy day like this. I wonder still who Hiromitsu is . I don't think he is Yakuza or Triad even. Could he be a shinigami? Why would a shinigami fall in love with a human? Maybe something happened to him that caused him to leave. I did feel something different from him than the others I've encountered. It's almost like there is a trace of hollow to his reiatsu . Maybe it's all the champagne I had. I'm not much of drinker really. I like beer sometimes. I don't drink sake but use it for cooking . I only drink during special occasions such as this i guess.
I must get some sleep soon. I have a 10:00am train to catch in the morning. I wish I could have stayed longer and visited more with my parents and other family members. That's what I miss the most about Sapporo. Most of my family is here. I feel more like myself when I'm around them. I miss the way things were when I lived here.